Dear Amberlyn,
I am so sorry. I am sorry I’m such a fucking slut and someone you should look down on because I’m not worthy of your open-mindness with many of your friends which gives me the wrong idea. I’m so sorry I haven’t text you for days now. I’m so sorry you don’t know shit about what I internally go through because I don’t have the fucking guts to say anything. You don’t deserve me as your girlfriend, I’m so fucking sorry I have such anxiety when I talk to you because I’m afraid I’ll eventually get boring and fuck up everything and then you’ll wind up breaking up with me because of my boredom. I Â don’t even fucking know if I’m doing right or not …I only use myself because I really just don’t care anymore. Fuck I failed everything. Fuck it. I’m so sorry. Â I wish I was dead right now. Please someone kill me please it’s all I ask for….