I Feel useless

At some point, video games all start to blur together. It’s like Neo seeing strings of code in “the matrix.”

These days, i see textures, models, pathing, scripted events, interface strategy… i see the layers and pieces, and can’t help but analyze the way they are all tied together to create a product, meant to convey a certain range of experiences… and whether or not the developed work “delivers.”

I find it hard to get sucked into the game, and instead find myself thinking “ah! i see what you did there…”

It’s very similar to the way i see (hear, rather) music. Once i learned enough about it, i began hearing the compositional strategies, all the bits and pieces, all the layers… which sort of makes it harder to just appreciate the piece as a whole.

Likewise telly, just because people say “you have a purpose,” that doesn’t mean you do. People say things. People think things. Often, those things are not true.

However, “existence as its own purpose,” is an idea i can agree with. It’s not required that anyone else approve of whatever purpose you want to give to your own life… but “to give your own life whatever purpose feels right to you,” is about the best answer you can have, to the questions: “what is the point? what is my purpose?”

Search inside yourself, “know thyself,” and figure out what purpose is meaningful to you. And then go do it. Live because you are alive. Live to make a purpose that matters to you.

I know it’s easier to just not care. I can see how, once purpose is lost, it might seem appealing to simply not look for or create another one. But if you would complain about lacking a purpose and being unmotivated, then there is only one person who can fix that problem, and it is you. You can’t just wait around for someone to come along and assign you a purpose and gift you with genuine motivation. If you take that route, you’ll find people demanding you do things you don’t want to do, with threats as the only motivation.

Choose your own purpose, or someone else will… or you will lack purpose entirely.

“In order to change anything, we must first accept it.” You can’t fix a problem while denying it exists, and denial is not a valid solution… though many seem to gladly employ it as though it were.

Good. 🙂

I like making people think. I’ve spent far too much time surrounded by those who seem to do so as little as possible.

You might even say that “make people think” is, at least part of, something i could call “my purpose.”

You may also find that through writing, you’ll learn quite a lot more about yourself. And i suppose that should contribute to figuring out what purpose you should embrace.