so i just broke up with my girlfriend.. well not officially yet.. but I really really fucked things up.. I was diagnosed w Bipolar when I was 18 and life kinda just stalled at that point and I’m struggling up till now.. I haven’t finished college yet and I’m 27.. because of that reason.. I just keep dropping out cause I have a problem being around loads of people (it’s an on and off thing, I’ve had a few gf’s and conquests since then and I do have good friends but yeah)
anyways.. so recently I failed to get a job I really wanted because of I didn’t have a degree.. and I just really lost my head.. I’m quite a hermit anyways but now that I didn’t have that job I’m REALLY a hermit.. and I dunno I lost it.. and in one drunken night while hanging out with her I told her I didn’t have a degree, I was bipolar, and I threw a fit , started banging the windows of my car and almost drove the car into a pit while she was in it..
she didn’t take too kindly of it
so now she’s with some other guy and though she hasn’t officially broken things up with me.. it’s fair to say I fucked things up.. Charlie’s effect is it? when one thing goes sour and everything crumbles along one after another.. so I lost the job and the girl..
I feel like this is a wake up call from God to really grow up and get my shit together.. so I dunno I guess I’m just writing on this thing just to vent.. I dunno everyone fucks up and goes through shit right? Everything was so dandy before I lost that job.. and I dunno.. it’s just unfair I guess.. how I just lose my head so easily and get down so quick.. I guess I’m just weak like that.. well me writing this isn’t exactly good practice in being a better and stronger person but………. it’s a bad habit..
anyways if any kids out there are reading this and you are feeling absolutely shitty… well hold on… cuz when you really grow up and can take a hold of ur own life (which is nicer than you think) then you’ll really regret being all depressive when your younger.. so take it from aged depresso.. try to enjoy your life and be as happy as you can from a young age.. it’ll make it easier for you when you do grow up (hopefully you’ll make it that far and don’t decide to end it all)
life’s hard.. but it ain’t easy for anyone.. like ANYONE.. even Kim Kardashian.. might sound like a stupid thing to say but.. I’m just trying to say that everyone has their strifes and it’s up to us to get it together.. that’s kinda like the slap in the face..
anyways.. watever i dunno wat else to write *peace*
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I agree. Young people need to accept the fact that one day the mind changes, or atleast gets use to “life” in general, and it can turn completely around for the good. It will be sad now, but one day it will get better. Good post.
yes.. i’ve broken up w this girl now.. god i haven’t dealt w a breakup in years.. what’s worse is I fcked it up myself.. I just always seem to “believe” I have this problem.. which is the biggest problem of all.. it stings because now there’s a new guy and he’s better than me..
you see kids.. life’s hard.. but it’s harder if you make it harder for yourself..
yes.. i’ve broken up w this girl now.. god i haven’t dealt w a breakup in years.. what’s worse is I fcked it up myself.. I just always seem to “believe” I have this problem.. which is the biggest problem of all.. it stings because now there’s a new guy and he’s better than me..
you see kids.. life’s hard.. but it’s harder if you make it harder for yourself..