dose anyone feel like its the end like its the end i dont know how to desrcibe it but i feel really nervous about everyhting and i realzie iam a huge fuck up will i ever get my shit right ever i dont want to go on here and sound like a huge big baby but honstley i think iam getting to the point were iam ready there are certain things i have to do to get ready but idk it really dosent scare me as much as other people i mean its going to happen to evryone anyways so yea i just know iam not worth anyhting and that iam unlovable and that i have no friends and that no one really likes me and i really ia exited i wont be a burden anymore its sad that the one person i love more than myself dosent care if i off myself but i guess thats how the world is i guess mabe its my own fault what a selifish thing iam doing but in the end evrything i guess will be ok ill be gone no feelings no happiyiness no anger just black darkness
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This is so close to how I was feeling earlier today. I do know that having no friends does not = being unlovable. But I get feeling like that too.
I also have a person in my life who would not care if i ended it. Someone i shared my love and feelings with. I realized, with help, today, that i will be better off without them sucking any happiness out of me. He seems to sense when I’m a little happy and just starts messing with me. Always it ends in a bad scene like I had today. People tried to tell me, on here, before, but I let myself get toyed with. Tomorrow when he tries something Im trying to just not give him an inch of myself. Let him toy with himself. (which sounds kinda rude but you know what i mean.)
You don’t sound like a baby. You don’t. These people or this person that is hurting you sounds the immature one. <3 Keep posting on this site, well it helps me very much.
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Don’t give up. Get some sleep, love. Try to rest your mind. You are so overwhelmed by the fear and the anxiety.. I’ve been there, so many times. It hurts, it sucks, just see if you can get some rest and try again tomorrow. Be kind to yourself. It sounds so cliche and I’m sure you’ve heard it any number of times before, but try it. Do something nice for yourself! Ice cream makes me happy 🙂 or brownies. Or hard cider 🙂 or funny movies. Fuck everyone else and do something for a bit that makes you feel a little peace. Even a minute of peace is enough to remind us that we can’t give up just yet, there may be something around the corner.