Tired

I worked three useless jobs my entire life to pay child support. These jobs were behind a bar, demanding all my time I was breaking even and going broke for years. I made plans for when I could stop and focus on me I would be able to get a future, see my kid, get an education, get married. I couldn’t put the money together to make these things happen, I ended up with no connections, no friends, no understanding, no job and no money. I choose to keep a quite lifestyle away from people, I was embarassed about the situation, and now after 2 years going strong and failing, being called dead beat, being uneducated, being to old to make money at my profession I am choosing to end it. You can’t pick up what you lost in time, fuck it not everyone gets it right