While life can feel helpless, it’s not. I know it’s sound hypocritical coming from someone who things like is meaningless, but that’s why we’re here. To help each other. I feel like is helpless but truth be told it really is not. You have to believe that. You said you have good people in your life, although he seem disconnected from them, try to at least confide in one of them. That in itself may take some weight of your shoulder and it’s always a good thing to have someone know how you’re feeling. With us, it’s easy to hide our dark feeling that when nobody notices we think they don’t care. But because we hide out feelings out friends are blind to them. Share and you should see how much they’ll understand and how much they would want to help. You say you can’t do anything right, but could it be that you’re being hard on your self? I’m sure you have plenty of things you’re good at. Just think of five things that you’re proud of and know you’re good at. Whether it’s being a dependable friend or hard-working student. These are all valuable attributes to be proud off. I know pleasing your parents may be important but pleasing yourself should come first because if you can’t please yourself you won’t please anyone. Try to think logically and positively about yourself and your situation and all I can hope is that things improve for you. Take care and I wish the best.