I’m sure that people here would consider me some what/completely delusional. Some of my claims are just far out there sometimes. But the truth is that no one has ever told me that I suffer from delusions (of all kinds) in my real/personal life. I’m not a liar, I know that..
Some examples are: I can predict the future (sometimes)
I tend to see ghosts where ever they are most present.
I can lift the back end of a Buick, and yet, my spine is broken (the bones)
I don’t age at all.
And probly the one most underestimated thing about me is that I’m a person who shouldn’t be alive today..don’t even know how it’s possible. I’ve been one of the lowest forms of life..people try to squash me out of existence every chance they get. But I am still here..people have tried to kill me, I’ve tried to let them. My latest delusion/fear is that I can not die, instead I will be here till the Armageddon.
My purpose is to see it till the end, and to suffer..and that’s what I want, nothing more. I think I have a lot to teach the world, as do many of you. And many of you will soon see your full potential..just keep trying.
But anyways..back to me..lol
The reason I’ve never been called out on any of these “delusions” is because I keep proving that they aren’t. Which, if you can imagine, is like a ton of bricks attached to your ears, pulling you to the edge of a cliff. Sometimes it’s just so overwhelming to think you are crazy and have your family tell you you are not.
I know that I can “predict” certain events..it’s happened..it’s always happening. Do I make mistakes?…ohh yes I do!! I have no control over what I “see” an what I “think”, they are the same feelings to me so its not perfect. But I have predicted big and small earthquakes, my own future with my wife (which is coming true right now) and many other things, very random. I can predict what a fortune cookie will say, a lot of the time.
Ghosts…..yes! Confirmed by my entire family. Last year we finally got rid of an angry female spirit that was attacking everyone, even my brothers kids. When I realized that it had been following me for years, I took control and simply showed it my power, and demanded it leave forever. It lingered for a week after, hiding in rooms, but eventually left for good. And it’s like it never happened..another reason I feel insane, but I try not to think about it anymore.
The bones in my lower spine are broken, but I am very strong, I mean VERY FUCKING STRONG!!! I can lift things that normally would take 2 grown men to lift. And it’s not an exaggeration, I have lifted the back end of a Buick car by myself, lifting the back right tire off the ground. Why can I do this, because my will dominates over this physical world. Pain is nothing but a permanent resident for this body, I have learned to welcome pain (for reasons that would make this post way too long). It just is what it is. I’m a small person less than 130lbs.
Am I delusional.. I’m trying to not care about that answer.
Part of my next step to releasing myself from these mental burdens is to let go of my need to see the future. My birthday is coming up, and if I’m not dead by then, I can finally let go of my “foresite”. It marks the day I predicted I would be gone from this earth. I’m so excited, I’m going to live. No one can understand how amazing I feel that I can let go of this seemingly horrific delusion. I can finally let it go.
Step by step, I will get better..I know it’s possible!
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Sometimes I want to ask my friends how I am perceived, to see if I am also delusional, but I’m too afraid to hear their responses. I think I asked once and I was shocked to hear what the person thought of me. It was extremely off the mark.
I believe you That you have powers but I try not to delve into that cause I get stuck into it and then its like this big o spiral But yea I believe you
I have gone way past the point of asking. Everyone knows I’m crazy, but that doesn’t mean I’m delusional. I think there is a difference, not sure. But having real delusions is where the confusion comes in. I’ve realized some of my real delusions and i have been able to end them easy. But it’s the ones I can’t stop or get anyone to tell me I’m making this shit up, that’s when I start to really question wether I’m going out of my mind or not.
I mean come on…seeing ghosts? Seeing the future? Really?? I can hardly believe it at times myself
When I sit.. I can barely hold my body up, my spine is crushing itself and I feel nothing but pain. But when I stand and face real opposition, I am an unstoppable force and I make people, everyone, look weak. No matter their size or strength
Thanks you guys. I needed that. I get hardly any validation in my real life, it’s like I just need one person to say.. “I hear ya!” For a change. lol
I’m just curious – when you say there was ‘an angry female spirit attacking everyone’ what did you see/what happened in this situation? Why did you think there was a spirit and why female?
I know it was a female because I caught it in a picture. And some other spooky things happened.. I’d find long black hairs spread across the walls after I’d cleaned, very creepy. Everyone was attacked the same way, we were all held down on our beds or couches and we couldn’t breath or scream. My niece had a clothes hanger thrown at her. And there was always noises and footsteps in the middle of the night. I have no idea if it was an actual ghost or a kind of demon spirit, because it seemed to be malicious yet lonely.
But that photo..that was what really scared the crap out of me and my wife.
That’s very interesting. I never know what to think of stories of hauntings like this…
It was always something I’d seen on tv till I found myself in the middle of a situation like that. I remember when it held me down..I tried my hardest to let out a scream and in the end I did.
My brother didn’t even believe any of us, as if it was an inside joke. Then he was held down on the couch. He didn’t know what to say after that. He was the 5th one to be held down I think. I was the 6th I think..my wife was the 2nd. My brothers wife was the 1st she claims.
Most people would think you are bat shit crazy but I believe you. I remember when I was little ….7 years old I was over my grandfather house playing video games and I fell asleep. I woke up and fell on the bed as if I was dropped like something was lifting me up. I was scared out my fucking brains I stayed up all night until morning. I swear it was some abnormal supernatural shit going on. Till this day there is no logical explanation for what I experienced. I also remember another time me my mom and my cousin were driving home late about 2am and we saw this guy walking on this long stretch of road ….nothing out of the ordinary but about a mile or 2 later we pass the same fucking guy I kid you not and we all noticed it and was freaked out. We chucked it up that he must have gotten a ride and they passed us and dropped him off but we all know that was just some Bullshit to keep us from acknowledging what just happened. There was no way he could have gotten that far ahead of us just no way.
Wow..that is creepy.
When I was young, my parents were managers of 2 apartment buildings. We lived in one, but I always hated going into the other building. It was like a portal to hell. I’d have to go get my dad for dinner time if he was working in the creepy building. I would run and feel like I was being chased through the halls. And I’ve seen toilet seats lift and slam shut again there.
Thanks PainNlife
My ex GF used to believe in ghosts, she claimed to see or hear them regularly until I came on the scene.
Funny, I seem to scare ghosts away, but I’m like that. I’m not tall, pretty thin, but I can change the mood of a room for better or worse when I enter. Of coarse, when I’ve been drinking I’m not afraid of anything.
When I was younger I wanted to pump myself up with weights & stuff (wouldn’t have worked, I just don’t eat enough). My (then) best friend pleaded for me not to – he said I was already to “in your face” and reckoned that I’d scare people away. I did inherit my fathers temper; my face completely alters when I get angry. Going through a tough time just over 10 years ago I wound up feeding the burger grill at BK. I remember we all went out for a night. One of the girls (young) I knew quite well (can’t remember how it came up) said she thought she’d laugh if I got angry. It takes quite a lot, but if I get pushed over the edge I’m pretty fierce. Thankfully, nobody there saw me lose it – I got thrown in jail first (previous ex/dead GF).
I’m a walking train wreck – I seem to cause/attract trouble if it isn’t there. I’m not a “bad ass” & generally do as I’m told, but I do fuck it up most of the time. I guess the ghosts, ghouls & goblins either get scared or maybe leave me alone because they think I’ve had enough.
Some years ago I went to the job centre & told the guy my story – I made the poor bugger feel sick. Just an endless saga of shyte that simply won’t stop – hence my first post.
I guess if you see ghosts, whether or not anyone else does, they are real; at least to you. Something in you attracts them. Easy for me to sit here & say “don’t be afraid”, but inevitably it’s going to come down to what you decide to do about it. Everyone occasionally gets nightmares, so it’s not a huge leap to understand that you could visualise these manifestations when you’re awake – especially if you’re on medication. Naturally, the scariest apparitions will come from the darkest corners of your own mind: no film director could score these things. It is also not unusual for numerous people to share such an encounter – we are social creatures; just look what happens when a herd of cattle or deer get spooked.
I think everybody experiences something out of the norm over the course of their life whether they want to acknowledge it or not. Now I don’t buy into T.V shows that claim they are “looking for ghost” because its entertainment. However, I think that paranormal activity isn’t as rare as people think it is. It makes you wonder if those spirits are just spirits of the dead or more sinister beings. If they are ghost…..I just wish I could see my grandfathers….OTOH I’d rather not because if I do then that means his spirit isn’t at rest like it should be
voting for post the pic. ^^
Surely you still have it.
Not sure if its possible to post the picture anymore cuz it’s on an old phone. And I wouldn’t want anyone to see it cuz it shows my house. The picture shows my bedroom window with this girl looking out the window at me. She has long black hair and a worried look. You can barely see her unless you zoom all the way in.
Idk..maybe I will post it up. But probly not.