Everyone I try to make friends with leaves. I’m always a second fucking choice and it really pisses me off because I know I’m a good friend, but nobody cares about me. I am so tired of being lonely and ignored and overlooked all the time. I just want to have a friend, that actually cares about me. And everyone just thinks “oh she’ll be fine.“ My parents especially. They’ve always paid attention to my brothers because I’ll be just fine.. And I’m not fucking fine. I’m trying so hard to hold it together but Goddammit why doesn’t anyone care about me?!! My mom thinks that I’m perfectly happy not having friends and I’m not, it’s killing me. Nobody thinks I’m anything special and everyone who ever has has replaced me.
Basically:
- Nobody cares about me.
- Everyone would be better off without me.
- I fail at everything I do.
- I quit everything I start.
- I wish I wasn’t born.
I’m so empty inside, what’s the point.
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Loneliness sucks doesn’t it. I don’t know your situation but sometimes people assume you’re a fine so they don’t have to deal with the hard questions. Anyway if you want an internet friend to talk to, I’m up for it. Email me anytime you want. If you’re already asleep then good night.
The point is your life is worth more then some friends, look for one good friend and that person will be worth more then 100 fake ones. Life’s not all about making friends although they’re great company, try meeting new people? Go new places
i know how you feel, i am the youngest in my family, always ignored cause i seem like i am always fine, second choice to guys and girls, it sucks yea, breaking down in front of family when you can’t take it anymore is the worst thing because they think you’re seeking attention and its like well i am no one gives me any, but its ok, just talk to me if you like.
it sucks because I don’t even have 1 friend. not even one. they all just pretend to care about me. But I do look forward to seeing you guys on here and talking.
The world is full of demons. Maybe all of us sad people are the only real souls left. We are being tortured for eternity. There’s no escape.
God I know how you feel. I used to feel that way when I was younger. Everyone thought that because I was outgoing that I was fine. No one knew how I felt inside. No one realized how fake they were being. I kept telling myself that I was ok and that things would get better. They didn’t and eventually I had a nervous breakdown. I finally learned to cut myself off from people. A therapist pretty much told me to learn to say fuck it and walk away. I do it a lot now. I figure if someone is going to be fake and act like a douche,…fuck it! I don’t need you. People don’t like it and I could care less. I would rather be real and help those who truly need it rather than being in a fake ass relationship. Consequently; I told my entire family to eat shit and I have not spoken to them in years, and I feel better for it. I hope that you find some kind of peace.