My Worthless Life Story

This is my life story…

My name is Troy. Born on January 12th, 1996

My life hasnt been all that great,Ive lost both my parents, and am currently in a fosterhome with my new foster parents.

It all started on October 11th,2008. My mom and dad started arguing and they divorced. After that my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She fought as much as she could and i couldnt say im proud to say she was my mother. Its so hard not to cut, I miss her so much and yet i have Nobody to comfort me. Ive been in the same foster home a few weeks after she died on May 23rd 2013. Im thinking about commiting suicide tonight because my life is a living hell. I miss my mom so much,I wish my dad hadnt abandoned me. He gave up his rights to me. Before all that, when i was 12 My uncle started raping me and now i cant trust many people. They caught him but i still cant trust many people. Im always alone, I usually stay to myself now and dont communicate much. I smoke Weed and do cocaine and cut everyday. Everyday im also at the bridge waiting to jump. I have nightmares everynight, The bands that saved me are, Pierce The Veil,Sleeping With Sirens,A Day To Remember,Bring Me The Horizon,Ghost Town. Many people dont understand my story or care.I get many people telling me im worthless and to kill myself. Sometimes i ignore them but its hard too. There was this one girl that i cared about and was the only person keeping me alive and her name was Joy. I loved her with all my heart, but she left me the last time i tried to commit suicide. I have been lost ever since. I probably never would have went through with suicide, But if i was walking on the train tracks on across the road and something was coming, I wouldnt get out of the way. Ive had a lot of people leave me and give up on me. It happens all the time. One of my best friends is TaylorIsScene<3 I may not have known her long, but i feel like ive known her forever. I Just Wish Joy Would Come back. She meant the world to me, but she probably doesnt care..</3 Joy if your reading this i Love you and always will. I dont feel like typing the rest, I dont feel like boring you guys.. Anyways if Anybody wants to contact me My Kik Is GettingAmped. My Instagram is @JustNarwhals . My Snapchat is GettingAmped. Thanks guys. If i dont answer i might have commited suicide. Because im on the edge right now…-Troy