these feelings, these horrible feelings, they haunt me, taunt me, scream do it, its ok, take more, take em all, let go, it’ll be ok, everything gets better when you’re gone. i loved her she was mine, only mine i thought she loved me but apparent not on the night she tried to take her own, i love her still do, the place they took her changed her, she left me for another and they look happy in love almost and it crushes me everyday, i hate this, i hate it all,these feelings are ridiculous, why must they be i want them gone, as well as these voices, they taunt me so much, ugh i wanna die these voices bash my skull and blind me it’s hard to think so i cut myself and watch the blood hit the ground, but as i say i have moved to pills they knock me around and make me pass out and in the morning i have the need to vomit, it worries and disturbs everyone to see me like this,Â i worry friends as i txt them with nonsense to which i do not mean to, i cannot help the hurt only make it worse which is why one can never love this monster.
fuck her man. just move on and get numb. thats the only way to deal with the bullshit in this world. get fuckin’ numb and champ your way through all the bullshit. don’t fall in love either. harden yourself and take what you want for yourself. she doesn’t think about you one bit which is the toughest pill to swallow. once you get that you can successfully move forward.
i guess you’re right it’s hard because i go to school with her she was my first girlfriend and first love, my friends keep saying “and i thought being straight was hard” hah, numbness it it my fellow.
you must be strong tell your mind you can do it. life is bullshit and the more you sit and think about the problem the worst it gets. Go out and distract yourself it helps alot
i’ve tried getting out trust me but everyday i come home, i can’t help but have the feelings surge forward and pull me under and try destroy me.