What do i want in life?
As i have often said before, all i want in life is to be happy. but that doesn’t seem to be reason enough, it doesn’t give me the drive i need to push my self to the limit and climb higher.
As i sit here and think the goal to simply be happy will never be enough. happiness seems to happen so often and it is so stringent; it is contained in the moment and in context.
It is so abstract and can happen at any given moment.
Happiness is procured out of nothing really.
It is so hard to explain at any given moment, anything can make you happy. A song, a memory a friend, a gift, good news, ect. but it is brief and soon departs. To shoot for a goal of eternally being happy would require a lot of work and effort, all wasted.
for anything can make you unhappy. The  numbers of reasons to be unhappy out ways the number of opportunities to be happy.
For me my only moment of true happiness seems to be when i am working for or towards something, but without the proper motivation and drive it soon fizzles and is replaced by something with seemingly equal importance,(important to me atleast). So again, what do i want in life?
The question keeps on burning and fading just to cycle again, each time with more flaming urgency. Really what do i want in life? i lead a meager existence working towards and never achieving anything.
My life is full of blank canvases waiting to be painted, portrayed, etched, marked; anything really, and still i give it nothing.
in all reality what i want for myself is to make a name, be a face, to step forth from the shadows and enter into the light. but really the majority of us are working towards the same thing, so with more ambition than others. and i seem to be one of the more ambitious types, but i like the drive.
I have nothing to push me from point A to B. i hinder, i fall, i crash, burn out. I really dont see the reason why though.
Simply wanting something doesnt seem to be enough for me.
I NEED
I need something to motivate me, i search and search and still.
nothing.
1 comment
Long time no see, SG, you’ve finally come back to grace SP with your presence? 🙂
Motivation is an ingredient that creates happiness, it also is the instructions on how to do so. That being said, motivation is happiness within itself – because motivation is essentially hope. I don’t understand why you feel pressured to become motivate or to utilize it, you have time to decide what you want to commit yourself to in life, there’s no time limit that restricts you. Take your ambiguous future and see it in a positive light. There’s excitement and curiosity that goes into the unknown and there’s a certain thrill to being able to choose what you ultimately want to do with your life, that power is always there. Do what you need to do in the meantime, keeping working despite your job being mundane, try to gather as many resources as you can (which do not have to be exclusively tangible) and when the time is right you’ll realize what you truly want to do in your life and the motivation will come out of that without you even trying. The key to motivation is to want something. To want something is to recognize the value in an outcome or an object and dedicate yourself to pursuing it. No one is motivated 24/7, it comes and goes, the only thing you need if you even have a little motivation is perseverance. Perseverance may also come from self discipline, which is something not many people have completely mastered (I haven’t at all, not at all) if you take things gradually, it will come to you. Don’t try to jump off the deep end and frustrating yourself when you cannot find something you’re looking for, take your time (and you do have lots of it) and eventually you’ll find it. Distractions are nice in the meantime too 🙂