welp.

I just generally suck at being a person

I want to die but i don’t want it to hurt but that seems rather improbable

I wish cutting your wrists didn’t suck so much

I wish i didn’t have to take pills to be a functioning human

I wish I could just have a 30-day free trial of being dead, just to see if it sucks as much as being alive

I wish I could be happy for this wonderful exciting thing that happened to my friend today

I wish I could get in a car and drive and drive and drive and never stop

I wish I could laugh without being hyperaware of the fact that i’ll soon have to stop

I want to die and it’s been a really long time since I’ve had such thoughts.