i quit taking effexor cold turkey a little more than a week ago. i wouldn’t suggest it. been kind of crazy. i am so damned tired. sleeping 12 hours when i can and still dead tired. the weakness and dizzy spells are an added bonus. thinking about stopping all of them as it has been a very long time since i have been unmedicated. my shrink doesn’t think that would be a good idea. chances are good that he is right. don’t think i could handle all the withdrawal symptoms. but it is becoming more obvious to me that there isn’t much left for me in the pharmaceutical area.  been there done that. i am so tired. tired of this life. tired of people. i don’t want to sound like i am whining. everyone has their problems. i am thinking that this story doesn’t have a happy ending. i am pulling away from everyone. just want to be alone. talking seems like a meaningless chore. i want to be dead. for all the things that suicide is -tragic, selfish, devastating et cetera, et cetera, it still seems preferable over this pointless life. at this moment it is still thoughts. having learned from experience i will keep my mouth shut about the hows, wheres. if there were a top ten list of things NOT to say to your shrink this would be number 1. I bought a gun today. feeling angry and defiant at the time i blabbed that one. for my trouble i got a ride in the back of a squad car(first time), got frisked in front a whole office full of people, and a nice bill at the end. need to learn to keep those thoughts to myself. better luck next time.