I feel as if the days pass by without me each day . The seasons change without my recognition of them. Everyone seems able to move on but me. Im still stuck on wether i can walk on this earth any longer. I refuse to be just another lost soul. I want to live and not just exist. I dont know what to do . Even with all the help in the world the pain and sorrow and quetions seem to never go away. Im lost. People are searching for me and i slip within their fingertips. It’s not that i dont have people to talk to it’s the fact that none of them are helping. i WANT to die. But im only 13 years old and i shouldnt feel this way. I should want to live. I should. But i dont. I dont have a plan. But im going to make one sooner or later. I just have to keep on thinking and over looking my thoughts. Even though ive been told that “my mind is a bad neighborhood and i never want to go there alone” .But i feel the need to visit the dreadful place longer so that i can understand. I need to go . I need to leave forever. I dont know when . But i have to. Im sorry.
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hey there, if you’d like to talk things through with me add me on skype okay, keegan.bourke85
you don’t have to talk about your issues if you don’t want to but i am here for you okay
uh thank you for replying i didnt expect for someone to reply so fast but i was hopeing someone would. And about the skype thing ya sure i have to make one though and thx so much.
Have you ever tried reaching out to others that are close to you? How do you think they would feel if you disappeared. Like imagine that actually happened. How would you react if you were them?
id probably feel worst and ive already thought about this. Over and over and over again. And yes ive talked to them. They all tell me the same thing which is please dont go i need you. And all i want to say is im sorry but i have to go. But i come back the next day with out a sweater and without the cuts for them. Not for me. I want to live for me and not them.
just add me when you get one and i’ll accept as quickly as possible
ok thx
So why don’t you live for yourself honey? Spread your wings and fly away become someone great. Become a nurse or a cook so I can hire you darn it. Come here and show me what you can do in the kitchen lol.