True Painnlife, it’s like just not existing. I do have many dreams and nightmares tho, but even then I’d still rather be asleep. I suffer SO much less while I’m sleeping.
The worse dreams are the ones that feel so real that you seriously think you are in reality….everything is so fucking real…. I hate those dreams….the really really really realistic ones….I remember one I had where I was in the car with my deceased grandfather….and I could have sworn that stuff was real…..when I woke up I was so sad … I had this sunken feeling in my chest because I realized it was only my imagination..
even still though….I prefer having those dreams over being awake any day….
I have some really realistic dreams these days. I think it’s the new sleeping med that I’ve been taking. Some of them are fun tho, kind of like a good movie, but others are more like you described. You wake up feeling so disturbed, confused and exhausted. But I too would still take that over being awake and being aware of every single torturous moment.
I also hate to wake up. I cry every morning because I’m still alive and have to face another day. But I love when it’s late enough that I can take some pills and go to sleep. I even try to take them during the day sometimes so I can extend the hours that I’m asleep, but they aren’t really effective during daytime most of the time. Maybe I have too much coffee in the morning, so the pills don’t succeed in putting me to sleep until at night?
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you wish
I just love sleeping so I can escape life temporarily at least.
Me too tiger….I wish I could sleep forever….dreamless sleep is probably no more or less than what non existence is like
True Painnlife, it’s like just not existing. I do have many dreams and nightmares tho, but even then I’d still rather be asleep. I suffer SO much less while I’m sleeping.
The worse dreams are the ones that feel so real that you seriously think you are in reality….everything is so fucking real…. I hate those dreams….the really really really realistic ones….I remember one I had where I was in the car with my deceased grandfather….and I could have sworn that stuff was real…..when I woke up I was so sad … I had this sunken feeling in my chest because I realized it was only my imagination..
even still though….I prefer having those dreams over being awake any day….
I have some really realistic dreams these days. I think it’s the new sleeping med that I’ve been taking. Some of them are fun tho, kind of like a good movie, but others are more like you described. You wake up feeling so disturbed, confused and exhausted. But I too would still take that over being awake and being aware of every single torturous moment.
And I hate going to bed because I wake up tomorrow.
I love to be asleep though.
I also hate to wake up. I cry every morning because I’m still alive and have to face another day. But I love when it’s late enough that I can take some pills and go to sleep. I even try to take them during the day sometimes so I can extend the hours that I’m asleep, but they aren’t really effective during daytime most of the time. Maybe I have too much coffee in the morning, so the pills don’t succeed in putting me to sleep until at night?