I take out my suicidal thought on characters.

Yeah. I literally just made a beautiful boy with ravens’ wings hang himself. (he got saved though) But… it makes me feel better. It’s almost like it’s happening to me, the way I describe it, and it just releases the want to die or cut or bleed. Sometimes I feel bad for them, though. I know they’re not real, but all the things I put them through.. But yeah, that’s how I let out my suicidal thoughts. And it works brilliantly…