When I’m on the verge of breaking away from my old self that was depressed, I ask myself this question, do I want to change? Yes, hell yes. There are two types of change with equal importance yet conflicting process of extending life to the fullest.
Metamorphosis
This by definition is growth marked by a state of change in physiology. Like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly or a tadpole changing its shape to a frog. What I ask myself is whether the next form I would take humanly, I know I won’t be able to change physically, but the exuberance out of the change, out of struggle and strife of a depressed life, what would be my next form?
Renaissance
To be reborn, it is the definition and history of 15th century Italy is proof of revival of arts, literature and science, etc. I ask myself further that when I’ve been in an environment where I can control my life, the life that I lived in the past, can I relive it? But only this time I should do it with all utility. Should I be true to my nature of the past, correct and begin the same life in a much more tranquil and knowledgeable mindset?
Both are opportunities to continue life. I would never want to be stuck where I’m at. I’ve been a fighter in fending off depression and BPD, and would like to advance my life to the next stages of which ever of the above.
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I’ll go for metamorphosis. past gone for once and forever – i love this idea.