This is my life…yet it must belong to some one else because I can’t possibly deserve this one. I don’t know who should be living my life, all I know is that I wake up everyday in this guys shoes.
When I go out to work in the morning, I fear that I’m taking some one elses position in the grand scheme of things. I get to work in a truck that should belong to some one more qualified than I. When I show up at the different locations, it’s as if everyone is expecting some one else, so I turn to look behind me to see no one else is there.
When I sit in my home, I know that I’m taking up valuable space, because This one is not my own.
I’m in love with a girl, a very good girl. She is so perfect for me, I suffer the illusion that she actually belongs to me. Although she looks me right in the eye, holds me close, and tells me she loves me more than anything in the world, I can’t help escape the feeling that she is talking to some one more attractive, brave, smarter and successful than I could ever be. Some one should let her know.
This pain I feel, it can’t be me. It can’t be my life. I’ve been given the wrong body and mind. I’m nothing but a thief and a poser. I look at my reflection, trying to see passed it all to recognize the face that is suppose to be staring back. But all I have is this.. This life. It’s mine, and no one else’s.
This strength that breaths beneath the surface, it is what holds me here. It is the only part of me that fails to create an illusion. This rage, this anger, it carves my purpose to give validity to who I am as a person, who I am in relation to this world and this life. My tongue and teeth clench my words, ready to vocalize exactly what my convictions intend to accomplish. When I stand, it’s upon my own two feet. When I grip, it will be of my own two hands, holding on for tomorrow’s next quest.
As I am.. Strong! Fearless! Powerful! A shell of some one else, braking free from who I am!
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You are fighting with the Thetan trapped inside you. Xenu wants more from you than you are willing to give. Recruit more members and then you will be at peace with your life.
I use to be a scientologist. But the religion doesn’t make sense once you realize that we are just spirits/energy inside body’s of meat and bone. Playing this “game” isn’t as serious as most people choose to play it anymore.
This mind, this body, this life…does not cloud or confuse the reality of life’s truths.
Recruit? Who or what..and For what purpose?
…just making a silly joke. It was between Scientology and Mormonism.
Good! lol cuz my initial reaction was laughter! 😉
@RT: Maybe you should have gone with “I used to be a scientologist, but then i took a logic and reasoning to the knee.”
@clever- “I took a logic and reasoning to the knee” what does that mean? We don’t have that saying here! lol
The only issue I have with Scientology is it’s following. Once I learned what I had to learn and applied it to my life, being apart of an organized religion (of any one belief) seemed like the opposite of what the religion had initially taught me. In my own mind.. Nothing exists that I don’t allow to exist. Life is a game, and I play with it a lot.
If you look at my recent comments, I’ve been a silly ass all afternoon. I didn’t want to leave your post out lol.
Silly is good! I enjoy silly! 🙂 thanks! lol
It’s a skyrim joke. You should google “arrow to the knee” to see what i’m talking about.
i was wondering which ass took my life -_- :-p waz up bro?
@clever- ah..I see! Vidia games! lol
@procel- finders keepers *****! lol jk 😉
Lets see.. I work 2 jobs now.. Enough said! lol waz up with you lately my brotha?
haha i keep my brain so feel free to plunder as u wish.
ouch, one is boring enough. how u finding it? meah not much, im creating a ctory on here that is how the world became and will become for i THE prophet now 🙂
How am I finding it? Like finding a job? Or what do I think of it? Cuz I can tell you it ain’t shit! lol meaning it’s not a good job, it’s just a fun job cuz it involves halloween! 😉
They will hire anyone but my brother got me this job luckily. I know it sounds like “oh..RT is just being handed jobs!” But I can assure you that my brother has no say in how many hours they give me to work. The manager only gave me 2 days a week, 4 hour days. Not much at all. But my brother has the ability to get me more hours at other locations. The down side is that it’s 13 hour days in far off locations. So my availability doesn’t work well with that. I’m trying not to focus on the money, but even now that I work 2 jobs, I’m still making less money cuz my main job cut my hours. 😐
…life’s hard bro! (Not that I need to tell that to anyone here) lol
haha rt ill start complaining about the amount of jobs you get when they involve a desk, a comfy chair and japaneese ladys that give you daily massages lol. so did where you were originally work cut the hours forcing the new job or did they cut the hours because of the new job?
how many brothers do you have? what you need is a winning lottery ticket bro, that would be awsome, i actually won four euro in the euro millions today, jackpot was like 50 million or something but still, it was something… mind you the ticket was 9 euro…
Life is hard but fuck it, who the fuck wants to live a life with no fucking chalenges?!? i mean imagine not wishing you were dead every morning (me) or being in crippiling pain all day (you) or working for shit money compared to others doing our work, who ever dosnt have this is just a soft ******. bring it on life you little *****, me and my main man gona own ur ass!
I took on the new job cuz I’m broke ass poor all the time. My main job cut hours coincidentally after the fact. Sucks! lol
And yes.. Sometimes I wonder if all this pushing myself will result in a missing arm or leg eventually…or better… Death! lol but I wonder all the time if one day I might just brake under the pressure of being the coolest mother fucker on the planet! 😉
talk about unfortuante!
Well if u loose one limb, make sure its a leg so you can write up a letter suing people for money.
Hahaha ***** puleaze that will never happen, you may crack under the pressure of trying (and failing) to be a cooler mofo than me 😉 jk, we both know sb owns our asses, speaking of whom, where does she lurk?
Shhh.. Something evil this way comes! lol
dont worry RT ill protect you :-p
………why are we holding each other like this? lol
RealTalk30 ,
brilliant! you have just described everyone one I ever met including myself! or am I myself? fuck yes I’m a rocketman burning up his fuse up here alone!! reminds me of that song “once in a life time?” is this my house? is this my wife? same as it ever was.
Well i don’t know about u but im holding u because one cool mofos ment to show up soon, also because ive a weird feeling ur going to misplace a leg and im beer to lend an extra two lol.
well well well, speak of awsome mofos and they start to arrive, waz up rocketman??
Thanks rocketman! 🙂
Yeah, sometimes I can explain exactly what is going on in my own head.
Posts like these are my therapy. They lubricate my transition into a higher form of consciousness, where I am free from all these worldly sensations, thoughts and emotions. I create them in the early morning and read them multiple times through out my day. 🙂
“Beer to lend an extra two!” I don’t think that’s a spelling error..I’m sure that’s exactly what you meant!!! Lmao 😛
Haha ment to say in here to lend an extra two legs but sher fuck it ill gladly share beer with ya too! Think its time i went to bed, ment to finish my three stage prophecy tonight but the last one shall have to ware. See ye tommorrow lads, stay safe and lucky lads.
Procel,
spelling error.. ha ha
Hey keep in mind this site caters to little kids too!! No body wants to hear your hippie love crap! ha ha 🙂
me? hum? I’ve been very busy being very naughty with a very naughty girl! doing unspeakable things to each other!!! it keeps my mind of things 🙂
Nice!
Sweet dreams procel!