A few nights ago I tried killing myself with my school tie, then with the strap off one of my broken school bags. It was around 1.00am (GMT) and I had been crying for hours before I decided to try doing it. I’ve just had enough of the harsh words and the amount of slagging off I get from all my classmates.
I sat in my room, tears runnign down my cheeks and cuts going up my arms, and the razor blade on my bed beside me. I just kept thinking: why should I have to go through this anymore? After I had thought through everything for all that time I decided I’d had enough. I went to my draws and took out my school tie, tied it in a hangman’s noose knot and attached it to my curtain rail. I then threaded it over my neck and stepped backwards off my chair, but unfortunately the knot came undone and I just fell to the floor. I cried even more after that because it had failed. After that I went and grabbed one of the straps off my broken school bag, slung it this time from my ceiling light wire and warpped around my neck.
Same thing happened! However… this time my strap broke and I landed again flat on the floor. I hide everything before my mum came in and lied that I’d just fallen over. My parents still don’t know about this attempt.
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oh the times we all got bullied in highschool. im actually starting to miss it after 5 years. the ridiculous bullying and childish acting. everything now is so serious..
also, tell your parents. you have no reason not to tell them
People that need to make fun of others to feel better about themselves enfuriates me. They are the ones that have to suffer. I wish I could give you a hug because I’ve been through the same. If you need to talk to someone I’m here to listen. Anyone that reads this comment and need someone to talk to I’m here. My email is russkich . girl @ gmail. com I’m just another person that wants to die.
I want to hold you in my arms and make it all better, but I can’t. I can only write. This can be a harsh world to survive. I know. But I have survived to age 69 and life is so much better now. I have my own home, land, pets and lifestyle. Survive for it; work toward it; find your place of safety in this brutal world. And know I will be smiling with you someday, even if I’m too old and have passed onward.