Survive? Couldn’t die if I wanted to

Hi ya’ll

I have been suicidal since around 3rd grade. Adults were so harsh that I hid and didn’t talk. But I did hear the spirit beings in my room. These spirit beings followed me around and tried to help me when my mother was raging.  Every time I was in trouble I would find help. Like the time I drove 3 brothers to Louisiana so that they could live with their aunt. After dropping them off I ran out of gas. I throw a blanket out in front of a concrete creek for a few hours, and then a man talking about Jesus walks by and asks me if I want help. I tell him that I ran out of gas. He leaves and comes back with a man with a credit card that buys me gas.

Several experiences later that are just like that. I am led to a book called “Living the Infinite Way” by Joel Goldsmith. Then I read Edgar Cayce books and Seth books. I read “Healing Yourself” by Rossman M.D. and “Hands of Light” the physicist Barbara Brennan.

There are 100s of books that teach people they are 100% energy and this energy can be focused and then called prayer. Used to be that I was so happy about it that I was happier than anyone else because nobody knew what I was talking about. These books said that I could ask the best for people all the time and I would get results. I wanted to see fast healing and all kinds of miracles and magic, so I tried to help people.

At the same time, I was still anti social because I had not been taught how to make friendships. I did not know how to talk about anything, but the rage of adults and the spirit beings that followed me around.

Now I have learned to talk, but I still talk about the same subjects. Spirit beings that follow me around and the fact that we are 100% energy beings that don’t die. Physicists say that atoms are eternal and indestructible. Physicists say at the quantum level we are all ONE energy. This quantum level includes electrons, the same electrons that oscillate together with electric and magnetic forces to cause electricity.

People are electromagnetic energy beings, eternal, and I proved this to myself by wishing the best for others. I was able to drop the fact that no one rescued me from my dreadful childhood. I decided that they didn’t know any better because they did not know that they are 100% energy, too. If you don’t know that you are vibrating the same energy as everybody else, then you start wars and prisons and police and racism.

Physics says that at the core of us is a vibration, a vibration so grand and vast that it burns the sun for an eternity. We are being created constantly by this same energy. We are choosing constantly to be here. there is no past or future. It is a holographic universe where our every thought is a picture. These pictures become us and our environment. These pictures heal us and hurt us. These pictures we think constantly.

I have felt the energy of this universe enter my body and leave it when praying for others. I have felt people’s feelings flow into me. I saw a sheet of rain pop up in front of me when I was hot and wishing that it would be cool. We are literally our own pictures.

Why do so many people say they are afraid of death when death does not exist? We are frequency beings. We vibrate whether here or there.