Or maybe I should entitle it.. “Worthless Others”
Idk.. Lately I’ve been finding it hard to value people at all. I feel so alien. Cuz after all, if people aren’t worth a damn in my life then whats the point of being anyone worth while in the first place. I’m so sick of this blood sucking planet. Fucking worthless god damn people…. Everywhere!!! I’m not trying to be hateful… But fuck’m all anyways!!
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It’s not the planet – the planet’s fine. Humanity is the disease.
No one is worthless, but you are not required to feel any extra empathy for those who do not feel especial regard for you. Treat others fairly, and hopefully they will treat you fairly in return – but you aren’t required to ‘like’ them. Keep the ones close to your heart who care as much for you as you do for them. That’s all that is necessary.
No there isn’t anything wrong with the “earth” (duh), it’s the people, obviously.
And right now.. I’m in a state of mind that doesn’t include having any respect or value for people… Period!
I just keep thinking over and over… No one is worth my time!
Even your wife and friends?
Well….I mean the earth isn’t exactly perfect…..it could be a little better…..Natural disasters, Diseases, and probably a few other things mother nature could rid itself of….
There was a time in my life when nothing and no one mattered. I wanted to give that up and just be accepting of what life gives me. It takes a whole lot of effort to keep from slipping back into that mindset. I’m just frustrated. I can’t find great reason for why I’m so frustrated other than I’m not content, atleast lately. I love my wife, what we have is special. But there are pieces missing in the puzzle that create a void in my heart. I’m a very different person, and I struggle feeling like a complete person sometimes.
I think it’s the same for everyone. Sometimes in a relationship we wonder why we don’t feel so close to the other person, but the truth is that everyone has walls up that no one can break through. This can sometimes lead people into thinking they are not content with the other party. They should not think so, and recognize that each individual has their differences, and there will be things you will never know nor understand about each other. There is nothing wrong with this, and it doesn’t mean that anyone is trying to hold themselves back. It is the same with good friends, although we don’t typically expect friends to bring us a certain elevated measure of contentment or fulfilment.
If you lost what you had, you would immediately notice a gaping void. I think you two must have reached a point where you know each other so well that you’re worried you won’t make any more progress, and yet, you still feel as if you should be closer. Well, you know, you can try bringing back some excitement and romance. Plan an unexpected surprise date, do something special (it doesn’t have to cost a lot of money – it’s the thought that counts). Perhaps you and your wife will be able to gain a new level of intimacy, and you may learn things about one another that you never knew.
Remember, somebody can live with the same person for fifty years and yet still hear stories they weren’t aware of on their fiftieth anniversary. Every human being is an island, but sometimes, you can be the lighthouse of someone’s island. You can provide that light and comfort they are searching for. Storms may approach the island, and the glow from the lighthouse may become dim, but the clouds will always fade and bring calmer days with a rejuvenating breeze.
I get it. People suck. Most of them are fake, selfish, don’t have a mind of their own, they don’t care, trouble others, conspire, love to laugh at the miseries of others, change their loyalties. In the last 28 years I am yet to meet a good genuine person. I am sick of people making me believe that they are nice and then turning out to be monsters (not in the harry potter sense).. I too wanna believe that people are real but they aren’t. That’s how life is. Sorry for the long post but I guess I am super duper depressed and lonely.
I would like to prove you wrong. I’m not sure how, given logistics, but at the very least, I would like to be a genuinely nice voice -guaranteed never to turn into a monster – to talk to.
I like that.. Another SP’er with the word “talk” in their user name. Good show!
Ill be the first to admit that I am not a good person, nor do I pretend to be! Nor does the world deserve such a person from me.
I do like to talk, haha.
I just genuinely believe in treating others the way you would like to be treated. I’ve found that being kind and having empathy can get you far in life. I promise I’m not pretending. It’s just how I live my life and it’s worked very well so far.
I’m not sure why you believe you’re not a good person, but I highly doubt you are a “bad” person.
Realtalk might not me a bad person but i am
Sometimes it’s difficult to distinguish between those who are simply speaking as a matter of fact, and those who emanate a miasma of pathetically pitiful, arbitrary self-deprecation… perhaps as a means for getting their fix to sate the cravings of their sorrow addiction.
Well, those speaking as a ‘matter of fact’ may well be overly pessimistic or dismissive of themselves. Everyone has the ability to make a positive contribution if they only try.
Marianna, I suppose that’s relative to your definition of “bad person”.
From your other posts, you clearly have empathy – the defining characteristic of a good person, so I know you can’t be too bad.
What makes you think you are a bad person?
I guess i just feel worthless is all. I get put down alot by everyone so i am starting to believe it.
Well that certainly does not qualify someone as a bad person. Hitler was a bad person, Charles Manson was a bad person, you are definitely not part of the bad person club. And it’s pretty much impossible to be a bad person when you’re empathetic. 🙂
I hope one day people will get out of the habit of putting others down to make themselves feel better, but unfortunately those assholes still exist – everywhere.
The most important thing you can do is to learn to love yourself, and it’s hard. It’s really hard when you’re surrounded by jerks all day. I’ve also come to the conclusion that humans can subconsciously sense self-esteem. Somehow people know when other people are down and prey on the weak…it’s oddly primal, but the same goes the other way: once you starting believing you’re the party, others pick up on it. Your enthusiasm is infectious.
Marianna, you are the party and seem like a really nice person. Do you mind if I ask how old you are?
I am 27 and u?
29. I’d like to talk more, I’ll send you a message.
Sure if u would like.
Email me i guess at marianna_vizakos@hotmail.com
I replied to ur email