The other thing is being alone. Everyday I go to school and whine that I have no real friends. And it’s true, I don’t. People say things to me here and there but no one wants to hear what I have to say. I tell myself that I find comfort in knowing that I’m on my own and I can’t be hurt because there literally is no one to Hurt me but then I find myself whining and crying wondering what I did to have no friends. Whenever I put myself out there I get rejected. Each time I get rejected I say I won’t be out there ever again but I always do and then I get rejected again. It’s a vicious cycle that I can’t handle. I have never been able to handle it. I don’t one if I want to be alone or not but what I do know is that I want to be gone. Even if you just read a sentence of this, please comment. I want to know how to understand.
The other thing is being alone.
Everyday I go to school and whine that I have no real friends. And it’s true, I don’t. People say things to me here and there but no one wants to hear what I have to say. I tell myself that I find comfort in knowing that I’m on my own and I can’t be hurt because there literally is no one to Hurt me but then I find myself whining and crying wondering what I did to have no friends. Whenever I put myself out there I get rejected. Each time I get rejected  I say I won’t be out there ever again but I always do and then I get rejected again. It’s a vicious cycle that I can’t handle. I have never been able to handle it. I don’t one if I want to be alone or not but what I do know is that I want to be gone. Even if you just read a sentence of this, please comment. I want to know how to understand.
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Wow, I just joined and I see your post and everything kicks in wishing I could protect and help you. This is not what I expected from this site, I expected the empty “you’re special and it will get better” and instead I get feelings of wishing I could help.