why fail?

i didn’t want to fail but my friends found me in the most unlikly place i thought to cut, i slit my wrists and then passed out i can’t remember anything else but i remember waking up in the hospital with doctors checking me i was out for two days but i realised that i put so much pressure on my family and friends, but i will try my best to stop cutting i mean if i have children when im older i don’t want them to keep staring at my arms. So yes bully me cuz of my scars bully me cuz i cut but you gotta know how hard it is to be able to stop cutting when you’ve been doing it for a long time. I’m not saying that its your fault for making us cut but all im saying is that you don’t have to be horrible and give us sarcy comments saying it’s your fault yes we know that its our fault but do you have to tell us that all the time and do you have to tell us all the wrongs we’ve done. I’m sorry for ranting its just im very upset.