Accepting isolation is just to difficult.

Its a known fact men who live alone tend to die a lot quicker (for various reasons). Many men, when they lose the emotional support of a wife, have health issues kick in, they may lose the will to see a doc, are often not on health insurance (if the wife takes it way).

I know I am not the same person I was before I lost mine. Yes Im better off without her in most ways, but now I have a list of serious isues to deal with.

Suicide rates are very high among men who lose their wives, its one of the all time highest causes for suicides in the world period.

In my case, my blood pressure has been at organ destroying levels for months now, even though I have not really felt it (yet). My immune system is weaker, I am generally more tired, certainly depressed, have anxiety, and it is quite possible I won’t last (just from the stress).

I dont intend to commit suicide like I did back in August, but have the feeling that my own body will “do it for me”.

I payed the price for that, but in my marriage, she didnt give me that (near the end), simply coz she was cheating again. I never even got sex anymore.

So, basically, her abandoning me just “continued” what I was expriencing here already . She had already found another guy, thats where her mind went.

I wasnt getting snuggles, care, much of anything but being yelled at, blamed, losing friends,

I have no choice now but to go to bed alone, its just how it is.

getting hell at times is better than getting hell all of the time 😉