I was with a guy on and off for a little over a year. Even when we were broken up we still messed around its like we were still together even though we really weren’t.. I was and still am madly and deeply in love with him his my first love when Ever I’m with him words can’t describe how I feel.. He would look me dead in the eyes and tell me plenty of times I was his one nd only nd he loved me.. I believed..stupid me..as of yesterday he has a new girlfriend..and I sit here still in disbelief I want to cry so bad but no tears come I think I’m all out of tears..I feel numb..I still want him idk way but I do again stupid me…I feel like I wanna die then the hollowness I feel in my heart will go away.. It’s been so long since I last cut but that might end…
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Can someone talk to me please I have no one now….
What’s happening? How are things?
I’m here.
I understand where you are.
Don’t kill yourself over it.
I was married 14+ years and she left me (among other things).
I tried to end it (came close to death), but it was also other factors involved too that made me attempt it.
I am still here though.
You will hurt for a while, but it will lessen.
Pray about it too (if you believe in that).
Rarely your first true love goes well, too many factors are involved on it and usually people end up dissapointing each other and that’s it. Doesn’t help that the world we live on seems to promote the disposal of everything when you no longer need it (even relationships).
I really envy people who find “the one” on their first try and go on living happily ever after (they really don’t, but at least they have each other), but that is really a minority.
If it was your first love i assume you must still be young, so trust me, the pain goes away (sometimes slowly, sometimes not so slowly, it varies) and eventually you might realize that the person you believed was all that… really wasn’t.
Hold on to things you value in life (or find some if you can) and hold on to them to get you through the pain, and try to get yourself to understand and assimilate what happened day by day… it’s the best you can do at the moment to move on and not get stuck in the stages of the loss.
Just like Wifeisgone said, you should pray and ask God for help if you believe in God. We’re your friends on this forum, don’t cut yourself.
“He would look me dead in the eyes and tell me plenty of times I was his one nd only nd he loved me.. I believed..stupid me..as of yesterday he has a new girlfriend”
Ok so why would you love someone who flat out lied to you and used you? He’s an asshole to treat you that way and then cheat on you. He’s not worth your love and if I was your brother I’d probably beat the crap out of him for lying to you.
I think you should move on. There is no such thing as a “the one” or your “soulmate”…that’s just BS they use to sell Hallmark cards. The reality is that you try to find someone who meets most of your requirements and who has integrity (doesn’t lie).
Whenever I broke up with a girl I always thought I could never find anyone hotter, nicer or more amazing than my previous gf but life always proved me wrong. I always found someone better than my ex. Now I’m older and I’m not as attractive as I used to be so I don’t get as much interest from girls as I once did-but once in a while I get lucky.
You sound young so I’d recommend that you move on. We’ve all had our hearts broken and lost out on love. Just pull it together and find someone new. Don’t hurt yourself-just write about it in a diary or something. Hang out with friends, change your mood. Plus girls have it far easier than guys when it comes to dating, as long as you’re cute and not obese.
Take a deep breath. Be gentle. Do something nice, like a hot bath. Make an appointment with a counselor tomorrow morning. If you still need to talk, let me know.
G.W.