Hi everyone. This is my first post and I’m only writing on here because I can’t talk to any of my “friends” about this. They just wouldn’t get it. The short story is that I’m in my 20’s, and last year had to move back with my parents after my position at my old job ended. I thought it would be a short thing and I was fine with it. It’s been a year, and I can’t find a job. I do stuff here and there for cash and do like seasonal stuff but I can’t find a full time job. I literally apply to 20+jobs a day. I don’t get it because I have a degree from a good school and experience. I wouldn’t be so upset about it except I really need a place of my own now because my parents are losing their house next month. They are trying to scramble to find a place to live, and I refuse to go with them. I shouldn’t still be living with my parents, and also we don’t see eye to eye on a lot of stuff- living with them is pretty stressful. I have never been happy or had an “easy” life. I’ve thought about killing myself for about 10 years, but never thought it was bad enough or thought it would get better with time. It only keeps getting worse. I’m so depressed and my life is so meaningless. I have a few friends and family who would miss me when I’m gone, but overall I haven’t accomplished anything or have anything to live for. Everyday is stress and I’m terrified that the day will come when we have to leave the house and we’ll be homeless. My friends are all rich so they wouldn’t get it. They are also all successful so they don’t understand how hard it is to keep trying for something that never happens. I don’t really want to die, I want my life to be better but I just don’t think it ever will be. I keep praying and hoping for just a little improvement but it’s only getting worse and I cannot live like this anymore, so unhappy, stressed, and basically being a loser. The only thing holding me back is my fear of hell and feeling bad for leaving my parents during this stressful time for them and around the holidays. I just don’t think I have any other choice though. I never thought things would end up this way. Thanks for listening.
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my life in a nutshell, except for the degree and good experience, but as good friend just told me “Killing ourselves won’t stop it from getting worse but make it to where it can never be better..”
Oh god, I am truly sorry for what you relate. Where do you live? is it the US?
Sending cvs is useless. This is not the way it works. 95% of all jobs are made by personal contacts, networking. It is completely irrelevant the education that you have, whether you exceed expectations or requirements that is completely of no importance.
What do you think Linkedin is for?
Linkedin is a ecosystem of corrupt incompetents who exploit personal connections in order to conceal their incompetence and lack of hard skills, and they get appointed by exploiting smiles, pictures and being cocksuckers whether men or women. That is why Linkedin and other work social networks are so succesful, because they are actively used by people to get jobs and promotions without any merit.
Truly intelligent people there are very few and you find them at research labs and things like that, making 4 times less money than a Event organizer whose sole skill is to be stuck on her Iphone all day meeting people at cocktail parties and exchanging cards.
Because of all this, you need to change your approach. If you want to keep in touch write me to rubbishmail@bk.ru
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