cutting

its painful after you cut, it hurts painfully. i wanted to stop my sister from hurting me but if i even stand up for myself she will cut into me so much deeper then she would and then i wont stand a chance if i get cut deeper, i want to stay alive because i have a boiyfriend and friends but im terrifried of fighting for it because she will tell my dad and then i will get beaten again i hate life but i have so much to live for .