dear R (#3)

dear R,

i’m sorry. i can’t give up on us. i can’t stop thinking of you. i need you, i miss you, don’t give up on me. please, i need you. i don’t think i’ll ever be happy without you. please, come back. i’m sorry, but please stop ignoring me. please stop hurting me. i’m so hurt and i can’t breathe. please talk to me. what if i never find love? what if you’re all i have? what if no one ever loves me the way i love them? we could have made it. but you gave up. you loved me the way i love you. but you don’t anymore. why? you saw potential where others saw flaws. you saw a puzzle where others saw broken fragments.

i love the passion in your eyes. you would tell me about what you loved, and it made me love you. i remember that night, after my game, i remember looking in your eyes. you were smiling down at me. you were proud of me, proud to call me yours. your eyes lit up looking down at me, the way they did when you talked about your passions. you looked so happy that night, and i felt so happy that night. i miss you. i remember talking to you, and sometimes you would just start smiling. you would look at me when i wasn’t looking at you. you looked at me like i was beautiful. like you were so happy because you knew that you could have me. please don’t let me go, please. i need you. i need that happiness and passion in your eyes. i need to know that someone in my life has that life in their eyes. please, don’t give up on me. i need you, please, don’t leave.

sincerely,

a