I moved on, My ex moved on…Why can’t I stop crying?

I never loved someone as much as I loved him…but then he started pushing me away, accusing me of cheating, and I ended up getting with someone else for a while…then he left me for someone else, but came back because he loved me. We broke up on Halloween, and I was fine for a couple weeks. We even hung out a few times…but I met someone that kept me distracted, fell for him not knowing he has anger issues, and now my ex has a new girlfriend and it’s tearing me apart. We were engaged. I really thought I had a future with him. I lost a lot of my friends when he and I got together because all I wanted was to be with him. A year of learning to hold him, kiss him, know his innermost secrets…and now it’s all gone to waste. I can’t even get rid of all the things that remind me of him, because my entire life became centered around him. I really care about my boyfriend, but he will never be as good as my ex…he’s not someone I could truly spend my life with.