Why do I feel so alone all the time?
I could be with a huge group of people but still feel so alone and unwanted. I try my best to be so successful, but the only thing I’m successful with is suicide thoughts. I will sit in class, and try and focus on what my teachers are saying but instead of whats really coming out of their moths I hear other peoples voices going on and on.
“Why do you exist?’
“No one wants you here. Leave”
“Kill yourself”
Now a days, I’m living in a generation where no one has a filter. It’s like no one understand how sharp their words cut. But only if they knew. I wonder if they walked a day in my shoes if that would change how they area? I wonder if they will stop all the negativity. A generation where people think no one has feelings, and if you do have feelings you’re counted as a crybaby. Is this how parents are raising there kids to become? A bully. I get how people say they want their kids to be strong and not be picked on. But that doesn’t mean for them to pick on others.
We live in a big fat, cruel world.
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Hello Empty Girl,
If you are in high school, you are living through the cruelest of time in life. Of course, there will always be petty people around. Sometimes the reason they are mean is because they know that might keep them from becoming the object of cruelty.
Your sensitive nature and heart are precious and to be revered, not ridiculed. Please guard them. I am a Sufi. You can Google the Sufi Order International. We aren’t some weird cult. I know a Sufi practice that might help protect you if you would like to learn. BTW, I’m not religious either, simply mystically inclined.
Not all pretty people are hateful.
Agreed….guard your heart and your mind.
Try to look deeper into the meaning of that.
I may not be able to understand what you are feeling right now but I am sure you are not alone in this. Try to be positive and associate yourself to people who you know loves you and has genuine concern for you. Cheer up and be strong.
trust me people “know” how sharp their words are, its evolution being an asshole, people can be just like animals signs of weakness are just an invitation for others to try and hurt u. And trust me if u hold out long enough youll find someone ur comfortable being around idk ur situation obviously but there are roughly 7 billion people in this world. To be completely truthful 99% of them do not give a shit, are idiot, will irritate you or some combination there in but that still leaves millions of people that could potentially enjoy being your friend. Even if u only ever meet just 1 friend remember its not the quantity of friends u have but the quality. Be cautious like sumsum12 said but be kind to those that show u kindness and with time they might open up to u
In a world where people no longer have a filter on the garbage that spews forth from their mouths, it’s important to instead make sure you have a functioning filter installed on your own mind.
People may say mean things but it is up to you whether or not to let it affect you. As you said yourself, it’s basically a world of people raised by shitty parents taught zero lessons about manners or respecting your fellow humans, so knowing that, why choose to let their opinions bother you? I know it’s easier said than done, I have thin skin and have never dealt with criticism or bullying very well, but slowly as I get older I’m realizing it’s up to me to not let stupid people take my own peace of mind from me.
And, as shallow as bits of wisdom like this can be, I do truly believe “Anyone who tries to bring you down is already below you”. When humans are feeling truly happy and fulfilled, they only want to uplift others around them and spread the joy, they don’t even have a second to spare to come up with a way to insult someone or hurt their feelings. People only want to hurt to bring someone else down to their level. It sounds like the cheesy things our parents tried to teach us, that bullies actually hate themselves rather than hating us, but it’s true. When you’re in a good mood and feeling good about yourself it would actually ruin your own day to take time to make someone else feel bad. So anyone who takes time and effort to say something mean about you is already below you, trying to make you as miserable as they are. Nobody likes feeling alone, so unhappy people want to make other people unhappy. Happy people want to make people happy.
Magnificent post, Spiritdying!!