this is probably one of the biggest step that i will be taking. In 24 hours, discogirl will be a name that will be free for use.
no this is not a form of hiatus. this is a permanent movement.
in time (if there is any) the heart will forget.
I am never meant to stay in this site or even in any of those chats.
but i learned that it wasnt a bad thing. there were real people in those chats. people who will genuinely listen to your nonsense and heartaches.
however things inevitably turned unpleasant.
enough to push me away.
enough for me push people away.
a defense mechanism of sort if i must describe it.
no more disco hopefully even in real life.
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Well, I just joined this site last night, and I’m already regretting that I did it. I can’t even fucking deal with life anymore.I come on here, with just a thought that somebody would understand. Nope. It just makes me feel even worse. Fade to black…
@Fallen_Crimson_Seraph: There probably are a lot of people on this site that do understand. Its up to you if being surrounded by like-minded people is helpful or just hurts more. One side of me finds comfort in being able to express myself in a place where it is not judged because others understand the pain. On the other hand, the caring side of me, is saddened that there are others who feel that same pain. Which side is stronger for you is your decision.
Hey Disco, I appeared on the new chat last week, I don’t know if you remember me. (I hadn’t been on since last Saturday so I have no idea what’s been going down.) If you might like to talk in private, feel free to shoot me a message (email). [I’m not part of any CC cliques, so… heh.] I only just met you on the new chat but you seem pretty cool.
Hi disco. 🙂
What’s wrong? I was actually happy to see you again – you had disappeared for a long while and I always wondered whether you were okay. What happened to lead you to post this?
When the trials and tribulations, innermost suffering of tormented souls on the internet become blahrish which is not a word but should be, in ones own mind, you’ll find yourself on the right path. Think of it all as mumbo jumbo, mumbo jumbo.
2 is a number. 1 is a number. Therefore 2 is 1.
Damnit, I broke maths again.