Next year I have to choose new subjects. I’ll be choosing the iB exams which is an examination where you are allowed 6 subjects but they are controlled, so these subjects should be:
*maths
*english
*a science (biology, physics or chemistry)
*a language (which they offer in school)
*a humanity (geography, history, psychology, business studies and one more thing that’s slipped my mind)
*an art (music, art or textiles) or another science
Since I want to be a vet I cannot take art next year by making these choices. Art is one way for me to release the pain that builds up inside… That’s why I am so afraid of next year and want to kill myself this year so I won’t have to suffer through it all next year. My other ways are swimming/training/riding (which I do 5 times a week, sometimes 6.) and yet another way is writing, writing anything really. I’m writing a book at the moment but mom took my phone from me where I had it all written down so I cannot continue this. But I will, hopefully, soon.
I am afraid of next year because I think I won’t be able to handle it because… Well, because, art is 50% of my relief, especially painting. Which is why I am wishing for lots and lots of artsy stuff for birthdays and Christmases etc. but I don’t think I’ll even have the time and because of that I’ll break.
But if I do take art next year I won’t be able to take that second science I need to become a vet, so, then I cannot follow my dream job…
Either way what I do, I’ll loose. So I don’t know what to do.
It’s such a hard choice.
2 comments
Hi,
I’m writing a book as well, and writing is my way to relieve everything, whether it be the fictional journal I write or the three novels I’m in the middle of, or poetry, or flash fiction. I know I got lucky with my college choice classes because a creative writing class was required for my major (which is history education), and I knew that if I couldn’t write, I’d be in the same sort of situation you are in now. I know what it’s like, though, to not have time for your major form of relief. I took AP classes, not IB, and I know IB is a lot more time-consuming. I would suggest taking the science if you are going into veterinary medicine, even though you need art the way you do because no matter how difficult, it is always possible to make time if you need it. Don’t break on us now, please! You can do this 🙂
Nicci
Hi,
Easier said than done… If I can’t do art, I’ll break. I’ll shatter like when you drop a glass egg from a 10 story building onto the concrete ground. With art though it’ll be like dropping a bouncy ball off a 10 story building, I’ll come right back up out of the depression hole but… I won’t be able to bounce back up without art. I’ll die without art…