I want to fucking die…

 Lies

 

Lies

Beautiful

Perfect

Lies

So meaningful

So happy

Lies

Destroying

Killing

Suffocating

Lies

Lie after lie

They come out in a rush

Straight to my heart

Like a bullet

Expelled from your mouth

Hurting more each time

Why did I put down my shield?

Why did I let myself go?

Why couldn’t I see?

That this would just result in horror

In things no one could possibly understand

Fathom

Learn

Hear

Feel

I slowly crumble

Before your eyes

And its like you don’t care

 You like my pain

You like to see

What I feel

Death

Pain

Terror

My life revolves around it

And you have the audacity

To ask me WHY?

As if you’re not the problem

As if I create my own depression

As if my own happiness

Is of my control

As if you are not the one pulling the trigger

As if you don’t want me to die.