It is saturday night and I am hanging around suicide project and peaceful pill forums. I have no family, no friends, general anxiety, depression, no social abilities, no self esteem. I’m so exhausted of insomnia that it hits towards psychosis.
What I have is two bottles of ******** in front of me. And Metoclopramide. And a bottle of Russian Standard Vodka. All you need.
But I will carry on. At least one try I will give it. I will fly to Sevilla in Spain and walk all the way up to Santiago on my own. With a tent and sleeping bag. Its the first and the last real endeavour of my lonely life. Then I’ll definitely know if all hope is lost and I’ll go down. Wish me luck.
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i’m in barcelona if you want to crash at my place for a few days just give me a shout
it’s too far from the way
ok…good luck with the trip
what’s the url of the peaceful pill forum?
good luck again
thank you. i don’t know if you can get in there without buying a subscription. http://peacefulpillforums.com/
thanks
good luck again again:-)
Could u plz tell me where I can find legit ******** seller?
I already bought two bottles from dorian fro mexico.. not sure if he’s legit or not..
haven’t received the package..
just in case its fake.. I can order again from ur source.
Buttlessinsomnia at hotmail.com
@David455
Are you from the UK? I was supposed to be in Barcelona but that didn’t work out.
@buttless
If you really want to die buy the Peaceful Pill Handbook there youll find uptodate information but i won’t post the adress here.
@filthy soul
No i’m from Germany.
@ filthy soul
I might go to London. Do you live there?
@David
It would be unfair of me to ask you to retell your life story. We may not share the same storyline, but I understand your despair. I’ve made extreme decisions as well. I flown to Hong Kong wanting to jump down from one of the skyscrapers or the bridge. Obviously I’m still alive now.
Do you see any chance of it getting better? I mean, at least life in Eastern Europe in general, is better than most Asian countries.
all the best to you
No, I’m actually from Malaysia. I asked because you seem to express yourself well. Most people ‘talk’ shitty English where I’m from, it bothers me.
I’ve travelled through Europe and exhausted virtually all my savings now. Just came back from Istanbul. Can’t say it wasn’t worth it, can’t say I regret it either. I experienced many things that I would not have if I continued to stay home and rot.
But I came to this realisation, and conclusion– that people are the same wherever you go. And I came up with this quote: The beauty of a city is often marred by the ugliness of human nature.
filthy soul, how is the economy in johor bahru?
Well my life story isn’t very interesting. There is no major abuse just the force to be normal is what made me ill. I think society is always as ugly as the hidden wounds it has caused you. Theyre just wounded fools themselves trying to pretend theyre alright thats what makes it ugly. How have you been travelling – by foot? And havent you encountered any truth within yourself?
dp you have any idea how many people are here without the luxury of ********?
Everyone who is over 18 and serious enough can get it. Its good that its not available to teens.
Where do you live? germany you said? you’re not far away from me. I have the same issues. May I ask how old you are? I can read from your name that you are male, I’m female but feeling just the way you do. Same problems as you describe. You know what I was thinking.. I know pretty stupid but how it’s unfair for us to buy guns. I mean, in america, so simple. Not pretty but would sure take the pain away
I’m twenty and I live near Cologne. Where do you live? Its possible to survive a headshod i wouldnt rely on anything but ******** or rails.
You can email me if you like to sandrevanfire@hotmail.com
Thanks, I’m 24. email is givemesomepeace@hush.com Just the one I want to use here since I don’t really know anyone. I do have some alter ego on the web, the kind that “looks’ happy. Guess you understand what I mean
David.. I thought u would be gone last night.. and u r still here
what happened? Dont tell me u fail from ******** or u forgot to drink it
What is holding ur back?
Life is holding me back. The courage of the desperate. And I drank it but only half a gram to fall asleep.
How was the taste of ******** david? Bitter as he’ll is it?
I bought peaceful pills e handbook online version.. planning to order two bottles as well..
if I drink two bottles of that shit and if I survive let it be… I will try to live my life again.
Its incredibly bitter you can get used to it I have the Johnson powder dissolved in water. You won’t survive even one bottle. So may I suggest you order it, lock it in your fridge and then you pack your butt and do something youve never done?
Nah.. I’ve done most of stupid shit other than anything illegal.
I have no intention to do anything illegal before I leave.
just gonna drink some vodka and listen to my favorite song and smoke a pack of cigarettes as usual
and get going..
Exhausted to live my life. Let that be the end of it.
@ David455 I wish I was in your place. If the ******** didn’t get held up at customs in Germany then maybe I still have a chance. I live in a country right next to Germany but now that I read your post I will probably order it in the nearest future
@ DeathDreamer You arent’t called Emily are you?
You can email me if you like sandrevanfire@hotmail.com
@David455 yes I am. I sent you an email
Hi deathdreamer and buttless. I ordered the online version of the peaceful pill handbook, going to try and order, hopefully customs here don’t stop it. Before, I have thought about flying to the usa and get me a gun, shoot myself. That seems unlikely to work since I’m not a us citizen. I’m just stuck here with the rope for hanging or the railroad. Railroad, I couldn’t possibly have the courage. Hanging, even less, just the amount of time it must take to suffocate!! I have dealt with enough shit in my life, I want to go quickly and painless.
Hi givemesomepeace
where do u live? It all depends on how busy custom r that day…
gLad givesomepeace.. hopefully mind get here without any interruption.
Got the peaceful pill handbook today as well, should have gotten it sooner, really useful info there, customs are bad in countries where they know you might use nemb for suicide… mainly european countries? that’s my guess at least from what i’ve read
David r u still alive?
David said in his post that he wants to take a trip first, then reevaluate his situation. So yes, he should still be alive! 🙂
@ buttless You’re looking at a different method now? I thought that you had bought lime sulfur from ebay or am I remembering that wrong?
im here
Daivid I have tried contacting you everywhere. Please don’t be dead. I haven’t heard from you in day. I’m seriously worried!!
Hi death dreamer, I have him around on several social media, only silence everywhere.
Could you email men, death dreamer. Mine is givmesomepeace@hush.com
I have alsot decidied to look for ******** as my last resort. If ayone can help me, I’m in europe . Thanks in advace!
Just few days back i got my stuff of N delivered to me. Obviously i had to loose out money to some scams that i fell for but all is well that ends well.
I spend a lot of my online time on suicide forums, as I’ve been a hard-core life-hater in the past. I know it would only take me an hour to get everything ready and drink the stuff . . but I’m not going to do it because I’m gonna miss Beer . . .Chinese takeaways . . chocolate . . Pizza . . . my open source video game . Thai takeaways * Almost forgot Thai man ..
and being a good looking, brilliant, selfish, young ****ing Idiot who can do everything except make friends and get a job. Just don’t think N is my part.
I got it pretty steep from a Vet and it is lying here. I’ll sell to anybody who is interested.. Just hit me up .
Have you sold you’re N yet?
I will buy it from you
Probably used it
Where is the best country to travel to to buy ********?
I dont want to get scammed or into trouble with Customs
Mexico seems to have clamped down.
whats the story with other South American Countries?
are there any available sources still online? Some are mentioned in Dr. Nitschke book, but you never know whether it is pure and Emily are you still alive? You can talk with me if you want.
is anybody alive here? Tried to contact GSP, but the email was canceled. Oh well, if anybody wants to talk (seriously, not about nothingness and other BS), pls write here. And I think my email is showing in comments, it’s new created for this purpose only, but active.
hi people, need a good link for quality ********. also to all you chemists out there, need details for lethal doses to body weight etc. tired and need out
Hi everyone , i am new here.
I have a request about some ********.
I have tried to buy some of one in usa but,i have to pay for a insurance cover before they can sent me my package, is this right or wrong.
My package is on hold in france Charles De Gaulle Airport Paris.
I just want to know if the law is like that or is it just a scammer, who try to fool me ?
I hope some one in here can help me answer my question?
You know what’s the shittiest part of SP? The fact that you read all of a person’s comments and posts, you get to know them and feel them, understand and suddenly there is no sign (in years) leaving a hole in a story of a person whom suddenly became the most honest and closest person you ever felt. And you’ll never know if they’ve gone…
True.