I believed that love was just around the corner
Just a few feet away
I found my love’s shoulder
and he told me “Tonight you need to stay.”
It was secret, me and him.
At age 15 and him 4 years and ten days away
He said he really cared,
and I believed him when he kissed my scars fake
I swore it was a dream, that he was an angel
He made me feel special
only to take it all away
After five months he stopped calling
he didn’t bother to text me back.
I cried and apologized for not being enough.
He said
“Emily you are so strong, and I respect everything you stand for. You make me happy, but you’re really not worth all the trouble.”
I cried. I laid awake in the night wondering what went wrong.
I cut where he kissed,
awakening more scars.
I fell but I missed,
and I listened to all his bullshit.
He called me baby, he said I was beautiful.
But I never knew that I was just another whore,
all I’ll ever be is his booty call.
1 comment
Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re going to have many heart brakes in life. This one just feels so bad because you’re so young. Don’t beat yourself up. I’m sure you’re a great kid and I feel for you. Time fixes it. It always does. I had my heart broke too recently. I’m still trying to get over it. God it’s hard. Hang in there.