Undecided

Back then when I was in high school, a person that was once a very good friend of mine half-jokingly said he wanted to commit suicide, for whatever reasons it may be. Me, being the ignorant and ill-informed kid I was, thought that’s silly and I ridiculed him and that idea. It was quite baffling to me considering that he was a very optimistic, fun-loving and happy-go-lucky person. It didn’t occur to me until long after that, that it wasn’t ridiculous at all; that a person should have the rights to take away his or her own life without needing consent from anyone.

Just think about it. People have their own reasons. You can’t simply say their reasons are false. Some people are chronically depressed, or terminally ill. Some just couldn’t stand to conform or live up to the expectation of their parents, friends and or even society at large; that it’s more than they could bear or clashes with their own personal values and principles. Obviously, you can’t make people do what they don’t want to or believe in what they don’t want to believe in, isn’t that right? Some people live their whole life feeling alienated and unable to truly relate with others, among many other reasons you can think of.

Anyway, I haven’t heard from him for a long time but without going into much details of his life, I could safely say that I kinda knew what he was probably going through – that I understand how he must have felt. It took me quite a while to get the pieces together. It took me some time to realize that many, if not all of us, were fated to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, and there’s nothing you can do about it. That is how I view life and I know it sounds pessimistic, but to be honest, for some odd reasons, it isn’t really that depressing to me.

Sure, there were times where we fight our way through in life, despite the pain we were forced to go through that perhaps, we sometimes mask ourselves from others, and hope for the best. As to win. Who doesn’t want to win, right? I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that though I’ve heard somewhere – “sometimes you really do have to lose to win”. I wonder, how life on this planet earth would have been if more people live by that principle?

I’ll end this with a link to an article which I found interesting. As the title would suggests, at this moment I’m still undecided. I’m not really in a hurry.

It is not in the least of my intention to offend anyone, but I’m sorry if I did, somehow.

http://alt.suicide.methods.narkive.com/7SZfEKze/dehydration-method-my-personal-experience