when you fail to kill yourself and then your friends wouldnt let you die either

That’s pretty heavy, a death is always hard to deal with unfortunately its inevitable and your going to have to deal with more in life. Having a support system is pretty crucial. You may be angry with your aunt now but you will thank her later in life.

You gotta look at it like your in a hurricane, the eye just passed and your on your way out you just got to sit back, hold on and wait for blue skies. There will be some damage but you can fix it.

I wouldn’t say put on a happy face and get back out there because there’s obviously some real issues that need to be dealt with by professional help but your going to find out who is really important to you and who really cares about your well being. Like your aunt.

Friends come and go every 3-5 years you will have a new set depending on what stage of life your in.

Don’t worry about the boyfriend right now hes not what you need. What you need to do is try and help your bro out. I know what that’s like I walked in on mine with a gun to his head but if your feeling the same way he is you will probably be able to relate to him more.