Well, I haven’t made a post on here in a very long time. A change I’ve noticed about this site is that not many people make comments on other peoples posts anymore, which is a shame but okay. Anyway, I like to come on here sometimes just to see what people share about themselves. I am quite intersted in human emotions and feelings and a lot of you people on here are more similar than you might think.
But I’m actually here to talk about myself.
And I honestly don’t mind if no one can be bothered to read this. I just feel like I have to get my feelings out, maybe for my own personal benefit.
I used to be ‘depressed’ and I did self harm and all that kind of thing, and honestly, I am actually ashamed. It was a really strange thing for me to do, especially as I had a great life. I was diagnosed with depression, but I don’t think I had it. I think I was just experimenting with different emotions.
Now that I’ve matured a little, I understand that being ugly isn’t a problem.
When I was at school, because of my pathetic teenage ‘problems’ I have failed in having a successful future.
Recently, because of my poor grades, I am having real problems finding a job.
And some times I just think ‘well, at least I don’t live horrible poverty’ but then, at least they’ve had nothing from the start.
I had a great upbringing, in a nice house, in a nice location with great friends and family. But now, I realise that I will never have a house on my own.
I was doing my own studies the other day, and I managed to work out that, where I live, if two working teachers get married, they wouldn’t be able to buy a house with the money they earn.
Now something is seriously wrong there.
So I am honestly worried about my future.
The doctors said I had depression a few years ago, I’m sure they were wrong.
But I’ve really been feeling down recently, but because of my silly teenage suicidal episode, they think I am just creating problems for myself.
Anyway, I don’t want to drag on, because otherwise it’s guaranteed that no one will read this.
But if you have taken a moment of your time to read this, please feel free to leave a comment (It doesn’t even have to be about my post) because it would be appreciated.
8 comments
We all just have to make the most with what we have.
You are completely right, but sometimes it’s hard to stay positive when you see everyone around you achieving great things, and you know you could be there with them, but because of mistakes in the past, you are held back.
We cant go back and relive things. Everyone wishes they could. We are what we are, and what we are is a lot of times a result of what we chose in the past.
There is always something to look forward to if you are alive, which is why I hate to see people on here talking about ending their own lives.
There a lot of people who won’t judge you. If you are around those who do, get out, you dont need it. Make new friends, get a new life. I know its easier said than done, but to live in the past will often kill you via stress. etc.
Teachers should get paid more 🙁
sometimes its tough to find people that uderstand where your coming from prob why i read forums like these so much its rough life is never easy the only advice i can give u is from what it sounds like u have a wife or someone important in your life (two teachers) if u have someone like that u should prob take it easy its hard to find the right person out there and these episodes kinda crush and destroy these relationships don’t allow it to try your best to enjoy what u have cause if u allow your depression to destroy this relationship u have you’ll never forgive yourself….. i know i haven’t
Dollars should be worth more. Everyone should get paid more (except the top 1%; they make plenty).
More people should be taught the…
VALUE…
Of understanding the concept of “value.”
i worry about my future too, and i think i would regret what i’m doing right now in future. but then, don’t we always regret what we did in the past and how it could be made better, but in the PAST it was our whole world and we couldn’t do otherwise.
its the same thing when i think about poors in my area. i think they can do much better just by willing so, but they don’t know otherwise. its all about levels and on which level you are.
@ireallydontknow Thanks for the advise. I don’t quite have a wife, but a friend. Your comment made me think, and recently I have been destroying our relationship because of how I’ve been feeling. I will try very hard to stay positive around them from now on.