Not recommending becoming an alcoholic, but the hardest times of the year for me are my birthday and new year’s eve/day, and the only way I survive them is by getting too drunk to feel anything.
Happy Birthday, sincerely. I’ve had some bad ones too. Those fake people have deadened hearts. You don’t. If no one else celebrates, buy yourself a fantastic piece of cake or other gift and give it to YOU. I’m alone most holidays, but always cook my very own Thanksgiving turkey with trimmings and open a bottle of champagne. For ME, from ME.
During my last birthday my wish was my 26th birthday to be the last one I celebrate, and I don’t live to see the next one. Only 2 months to my next birthday so there is still a chance I guess…..
It’s my 24th birthday.
And if I’m sincere I’ve been thinking about killing myself since 2008.
I tried to commit suicide that year. Obviously didn’t work. Most people don’t know, but the ones who do think I’m ok. But I’m not. I’ve never been and never will. But I’m too much of a coward to do it again.
I just wish to die. To end this all. I won’t tell you not to do that and try to find something meaningful or worth living cause I’m not that hypocrite. The only thing I can tell you is for you to finally find peace.
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Not recommending becoming an alcoholic, but the hardest times of the year for me are my birthday and new year’s eve/day, and the only way I survive them is by getting too drunk to feel anything.
Happy Birthday, sincerely. I’ve had some bad ones too. Those fake people have deadened hearts. You don’t. If no one else celebrates, buy yourself a fantastic piece of cake or other gift and give it to YOU. I’m alone most holidays, but always cook my very own Thanksgiving turkey with trimmings and open a bottle of champagne. For ME, from ME.
During my last birthday my wish was my 26th birthday to be the last one I celebrate, and I don’t live to see the next one. Only 2 months to my next birthday so there is still a chance I guess…..
It’s my 24th birthday.
And if I’m sincere I’ve been thinking about killing myself since 2008.
I tried to commit suicide that year. Obviously didn’t work. Most people don’t know, but the ones who do think I’m ok. But I’m not. I’ve never been and never will. But I’m too much of a coward to do it again.
I just wish to die. To end this all. I won’t tell you not to do that and try to find something meaningful or worth living cause I’m not that hypocrite. The only thing I can tell you is for you to finally find peace.
thank you so much, I’ll buy to myself the best cake ever.:)