To be fair, to sum it all up I am simply just a lonely teenager who is loved by none, has many things wrong with her mental stability, obsesses with too many bands and unreal things, is addicted to self harm, has attempted suicide that many times I can no longer count them all on my fingers, drinks way too much coffee and alcohol, and reads too many band fanfictions.
And all I can do when I read that over is stare blankly at the laptop screen.
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Not that far off from me, although I’m too old now for anyone to give an ish.
It’s not so pathetic as I’m sure you believe as it is a problem. At the very least, people like us have your back.
You sound lovely 🙂
Hmm, I’m in the same boat as you (is 20 still a teen?) so I can relate. I wish I didn’t feel like I needed someones love or compassion but it’s something I have wanted for so long and have yet to receive…well I never will so yeah.
I like fanfic, although not about bands, haven’t read any likw that before. Not only do I enjoy reading them, but I also write my own. But my disenchanted suicidal thoughts means that I’d rather not share them with others as there’s some pretty heavy stuff in them.
I had read your first post as well and saw that you’d planned on ending it in August last year. In a way, I am glad you’ve found the strength to carry on for however longer you will. And I’m glad you shared your two secrets with us.
Take care.