Having a hard time dealing with the fact that everyone I get close to, seems to betray me… is it me? I don’t understand. I’m too a point where I feel walls have fell on top of me and I’m running out of oxygen. I feel as if I’m overly nice, maybe that attracts shit? If anyone has any insight please share. -_- *Ranting*
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I doubt it’s anything unique about you causing it. Everyone deals with betrayal at one time or another. It just seems part of the nature of two or more human beings trying to get together and interact in a friendship, relationship, or even just on a business level, somebody always gets screwed and hurt. Seems we just can’t get close to each other without hurting each other for selfish reasons.
There’s a difference between being nice and letting yourself get walked all over. Don’t decide to stop being nice as a way to try to defend yourself, that just means there’s one more jerk in the world and perpetuates the problem. Being a crappy person spreads like a disease. Most people start out nice until they deal with enough assholes that they decide to start being a jerk themselves because they’re sick of their heart hurting. It keeps spreading that way. If you’re a nice person, stay nice. Everyone can have 1 chance but learn when it’s time to cut people off and not let them hurt you repeatedly. That doesn’t mean you have to hate anyone or hold a grudge, you can forgive people and wish them the best but still excuse them from your life if you find out they’re going to keep taking advantage of you.
In a perfect world it would be easier to not have to deal with other humans all together and I’ve tried that but unfortunately it seems a large part of our spiritual and mental health comes from interacting with other people.
Hi, Pink. You’re not alone. My entire life is a string of progressively more destructive betrayals. Some of us are just less predatory by nature (just like some of us are more easily angered or more sensitive to sound/light…). We who are less inclined to prey upon others are preyed upon by the human hunters. Worst of all, as we get older it only gets worse, instead of better. Our culture has no use anymore for older citizens, other than lusting after their life savings. So if we survive betrayal-after-betrayal in our youth, we most probably have only to look forward to more destabilizing betrayals in our old age, with few, if any, around to protect us.
It’s one of the motivating reasons behind my decision. Good luck to you.