I am tired. Faking the smile, holding back the tears, hiding the scars, everything. These past 3 years have been so exhausting I feel as though my time is coming soon. The thoughts grow stronger, and my deep need for death seems imminent. I just want to go and never look back. I don’t want to write notes or express anything to my relatives or friends for my passing. I just want it to be quick and painless.
My question to all of you:
How has near suicidal success affected you?
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Good question. I guess it’s made me even more depressed. Before my first serious attempt I was kinda happy because I thought it all would be over soon. You could even say I had a purpose.
Now… I feel trapped, and even more depressed. Also, I do not underestimate how hard is to kill yourself anymore. I used to boast “my first attempt would be my last”.
Whatever.
Do you have an email where I can talk to you? Were in kinda the same boat.
Dallaner at yahoo