If only we could fast forward life..

Everyone tells me ‘don’t wish your life away’ but it’s so hard for me not to. You know, I so badly want to live a long and happy life, but it’s really not that easy. And maybe people are right when they tell me that, but I hate my life so so much at this point. It has come to point where I can’t see myself even growing up. I know I’ll never kill myself, I could never muster the courage. I could never do that to my family. I love them, and I know they love me. I just wish I could be dead until the end of high school and then magically come back. Ugh, I’m such a screw up. And I feel like a terrible friend. And I just got really off topic. Anyways, I just hate the world we live in.