I am ready to die. Its a subject that enters my subconscious daily. My depression seems to be growing stronger and stronger every time this vicious cycle runs its course. I’m tired of it, I really am. And having my family unknowing of it makes it harder. Yesterday,I asked my mom if I could get a counselor. She responded in a way that sounded as though I was seeking attention. Â That was my final straw. Mustering up the courage to ask her was hard enough, but having her to shoot me down so fast was even more painful. I am ready to go now. My question to all of you is what is a fast and non-painful was to kill yourself? I don’t have a gun or anything of that sort. I wish I did though. Â Giving some suggestion would be great. Thanks.
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Yes there is painless methods…
how old r u anyways? Sounds like teenager to me. 🙁
I’m in the same boat. I’m 27. My family doesn’t know either, or my friends. I’ve spent my life after school building a career from which I was made redundant 6 months ago. Pretty much completely addicted to valium also which I can’t bare to admit to my parents. I’m taking ridiculous amounts.
You should try telling your parents in detail exactly how you feel before you end up like me. There’s still plenty of roads for you to take.
All my friends do is drugs. So all I do now is drugs. I’ve given up boxing and running and life in general pretty much now.
Obviously there are ways which are painless but I’ve tried twice and woke up both times which is a shitter, I just ended up unconscious for a couple of days.
It’s pretty scary realising what you’ve done when you wake up and have a sudden realisation that your parents would no longer have you.
Just try telling your mum. Hope this helps a little.
I am a teenager. And I’ve gone through a lot for a teenager. I am young I know, but I hope you don’t look down on me for being so young. I’m used to taking prescribed medicines. I never took them to really get ‘high’ or anything, I did them so it could make me feel pain. When I took them by the bottles for suicidal reasons, they never worked. I am ready to leave now. I found a full bottle of muscle relaxants, but I am not completely positive it will do the trick. Do you know any other drug that doesn’t go with muscle relaxants, and is fatal?
No I don’t look down on you because of your age at all. I was on fluoxetine (Prozac), citalopram, mirtazipine and others as a teenager but they never worked. So I self medicated with recreational drugs which can only have made things worse I know. Now I’m stuck on like 140mg diazepam every day with a 20 bag of green to boot.
As a teenager I took a whole box of Prozac and everything else i had and 70cl of whisky and woke up :O I couldn’t believe it. Recently (2weeks ago) I took 1000mg valium, a box of tramadol and 70cl of whisky….I like whisky I guess lol …and I woke up. Last week I took another 100 10mg valium crushed up with a box of dihydrocodiene and 70cl of rum this time…..I woke up. The last two should have killed me stone dead.
I’ve come to realise that od’ing is harder than it seems! I’ve given up this technique and realised that I’m probably more likely to wake up brain damaged or with permanent liver damage than die peacefully. I truly urge you to reconsider. Because I say again, the success rate is low. How old are you if you don’t mind me asking?
I am currently 16 years old. I need to leave, I’m so tired. And from what I have read on here, life gets more complicated as you keep on living. I have burdens that have weighed me down most of my life. I just want to be free. When ever I try to talk to my parents about it they just say i’m seeking attention. I’m not sure on what else to do. My depression has worsened over the past few years. My days now consist of laying in bed and just staring at the ceiling. I just want to leave soon. That’s all :/
I understand, I’ve been where you are. Literally.
I really feel sad for you that you’re on a site like this at your age. I can’t reiterate enough how much I think you should call the samaratins or some similar organisation though to talk through your problems with a third party person who won’t dismiss you as “attention seeking” Which I think is irresponsible on your parents part. However…
After my first try it was such a reality check that I started boxing, running and going to the gym. I wish to god I’d never messed around with other drugs so much though….especially valium. It’s the devils drug….wd’s are worse than heroin and crack combined. That’s what put an end to my boxing and general training. :'(
You should try pushing your limits before you check out. Go for a run and feel the endorphins! But MAKE yourself do it. It’s fucking hard I truly know but it’s worth a try, you only get one go and I’ve tried pretty much everything before I got to this point. I’ve boxed competitively, played guitar and sang at open mic nights …all kinds. I’m just a habitual drug user now and I can’t see a way out. Give it a try…please. You can beat this, I could have beaten this but I took lots of wrong choices. If just 1 person learned from my fuck ups it would be worth it. But I can’t emphasise enough how much exercise is the key to beating depression! It truly is.
You still there?? You got me more worried about you than myself :l
I hope you’re still keeping on. Just a reply of any kind will do. Perhaps my suggestions were a bit adventurous for a starter. I’m just in some fucked up ether in which I can do shit like that but I’m emotionally blocked to what’s gonna eventually happen. You’re not, you still actually feel emotion. I stopped being able to even cry years ago.
Please respond to this….
I am still alive. Thank you for everything.
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Stay alive, hold out for when you move out. It could change your world for the better. Also, you might be able to talk to the school counselor as well.
I’m sorry your not being recognized as having depression. It’s still not very well understood. Don’t think that cutting or OD’ing is an easy task… the success rate is very very slim and could do you considerable irreversible damage. There are painless ways but I will not help you.
Keep venting here.