I’m 17, and it’s been two years since I’ve slept with the lights off.
I’ve skipped countless sleepovers because of this; I’m too embarrassed to tell anyone.
If my dad turns off the lights when I’m sleeping, I wake up a few minutes later, sweating.
I hate ptsd.
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I know you mentioned that sharing this would be embarrassing to you… One reason I’d share it is that the long-term effects of getting help would probably outweigh any short-term embarrassment. To be honest, you have no reason to be embarrassed. We all have things going on in our worlds and it often takes a lot of courage to reach out.
So you been sleeping with the lights off for 2 years now?
try to embrace the sleep
Yep. I usually get about 3-4 of sleep a night.
haha it’s not that simple. I have ptsd, (among other problems) I can’t just ’embrace the sleep’
I’m sorry this is happening to you. I’ve been having some sleep problems myself, and it’s a shitty existence. Can’t imagine what it would be like for two years, that sounds absolutely terrible.
I’m working on trying out some over the counter sleep aids, maybe you could try it too and see if they help? Maybe take a melatonin or two and try sleeping in low light, to ease your way into it?
Thank you for the kind words.
Unfortunately, sleeping pills don’t have any kind of impact on me.
I used to be addicted to melatonin, about two years ago when the sleep problems first began. Then, I became immune to melatonin.
I’ve tried over the counter stuff, and some really strong prescribed pills.
Nothing works.
I am so sorry, that’s terrible. I know it’s not for everyone, but have you considered looking into any holistic remedies, or even just smoking a bowl or two before bed?
I dunno if this helps, but I believe in you, and want to help see you through this. Sleeping problems fucking suck.
haha, that’s out of the question for me.
I do not want to take up smoking. I have enough problems, I don’t need to add “potential lung cancer” to the list.
Marijuana doesn’t cause lung cancer, but I respect your resolve.