So I guess I can’t leave

Letitgo i could not write it better myself. Too many people we care about that don’t feel the same. My fav line you wrote tho speaks the loudest: too many people that would forget. Its bad enough they did nothing yet they feel guilt but then forget us. And yet we are only staying and fighting for them. I feel your pain and as onlyloveisreal said 13 is so young. But i remember that at that age i started feeling as you do. It suck big when you go thru that so early. I cant really give you advice but i wont lie and say oh you will outgrow it. Because you might but you might not as well. Unfortunately that is life. Keep up with the poetry tho. Its very powerful.

Im so glad to hear you have an outlet. I used to write poetry as well and paint as my outlet. But after going thru my own crap life and stopping because i thought i was better, well it just doesnt come as it did before. Never stop writing. Dont let the pain stay so long and build to the point you no longer know how to even communicate to yourself what you feel.