Suicide is ultimate goal of my life
but every time I think on suicide, some mysterious emotion from brain interrupting me to proceed.
I really don’t know what is that invisible force/logic/part of brain/emotion acting on me. IMO, all human species are deeply interlaced in a complex network. I think we humans should fund a psychology institute to solve this problem.
If other people are only stopping force of my suicide,
I hardly met 1000 people in my 25 yrs of life, and I am capable enough to convince myself that all are useless creatures not worth sharing a life with them. Hence these guys are not cause of that unknown force
I also read great people’s writings and their biographies. Most of them are already dead, few people I may not meet them in life. Hence they are not culprits.
or is it innate quality of human brain to resist own death?
If so how to overcome it?
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Perhaps it is because humans as a whole are selfish creatures? We live only for ourselves with no cares for any other life. The “top” of the food chain. Taking your own life is equal to slapping that “me” mentality humanity has grown. It says you take control for yourself of your own life and cease to be this creature that continues to take and take. It takes a different form of selfishness to overcome the human brain. We have to be selfish enough to put forth desires seen as “wrong” and take charge on it. Why is it ok to live and destroy evrything around us? This earth and all her creatures who lived in perfect balance before humanity came along and decided they were the best. Its ok to destroy everything else out of selfishness to be “topdog” yet when those of us who wish to go under our own terms for our own reason try to leave everyone including our own human brain says no its selfish. We have to overcome that selfishness. And that is why its so hard. We have to be “selfish” to stop being selfish.
I understand the thoughts going inside your head right now, because I share many of those helpless feelings. I’m going to sit and tell you your life is going to get better and all, I just wanted to say there are other people out there suffering like you so don’t feel like your all alone in this.
I’ve probably met several thousand people in my life… and I’ve pushed them all away. So my end result is close to yours… not many people around me.
Your body does have mechanisms built in to keep things going… a survival mechanism of sorts. It can be hard to overcome… but it also allows you time to get things on track. There are no guarantees in life… but if you lose hope and don’t fight for yourself, it becomes that much harder.