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“What’s on your mind?”
What’s on my mind? Well here I’ll tell ya..I have so many things on my mind it hurts, it makes me stressed. Plus stress and depression don’t mix. I have been trying not to cry all day so instead I ripped open my skin where it was healing from me cutting myself last week because the main person I talk to to cheer me up was either, busy, playing games, sleeping or his internet was acting up. So I broke almost a year of not cutting because of all this shit. Plus! I have had panic attacks worse than ever before since september so yeah..Im supposed to go to counseling for all this shit but no I only went once and never heard anything from the damned people so I have been talking to the best person to ever cheer me up because I have known him the longest and that has been working..But then there are points where we cant talk and Im fighting back tears and the urge to get my knife and when he starts talking to me again I just smile..I feel like everything’s gonna be alright. Im happy talking to him. I love him and he is my boyfriend now…we have been dating now for 1 month yesterday and I wished we could have talked but did we? No..The last time we talked was saturday at 4:25 pm. I looked back at skype for it. Im sorry I broke my promise..
2 comments
Try to look at one thing at a time. And Unfortunatelly, don’t expect to find hapiness through other people, it’s the best way of ending up disappointed.
Hope you’ll be ok.
Looking at one thing at a time is difficult for me. And I try not too just that guy makes me feel like everythings alright and I dont have to cry. And thanks