Oh god. Because the site has this WP plugin activated that highlights certain words as links, I misread “antidepressant,” as, “antiperspirant.” I was about to go, “NO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON’T EAT THE OLDSPICE!” Because, you know, that shit’s disgusting and the taste will never go away for at least a week. Heh…
But antidepressants are not much better than antiperspirant. Antidepressants will almost definitely cause you to have some kind of breakdown episode that will almost definitely land you in a psyche hospital until you came down from it… and then they’d almost definitely keep you under observation for displaying suicidal intentions. Better to take the antidepressants how they’re supposed to be taken and see if they help, or ask your doc to switch you to something else if they aren’t working. Just my $0.02
I overdosed four years ago on various meds (prozac, klonopin, wellbutrin, benadryl). I was in my dormitory. I started hallucinating very badly. I thought their were ants in my pants. I ran into the hallway and pulled my pants down. My roommate and his friend had to get me out of the hall. I think they just thought I had done some pills and was “tripping”, but they didn’t realize I had overdosed. They told me to just go to sleep and I couldn’t because I “saw” snakes and rats in my room. So I went walking down the hall to go downstairs and report the “invasion” and the next thing I know I started shaking violently and I was having a seizure. My head kept heading the hard carpet. Next thing I know i was out cold.
Then…
I woke up and two girls were above me. One girl was crying and asked what happened. Next thing I know I started balling and telling them I tried to kill myself. Then I saw my fucking RA walking down the hall and the EMT people. BOY WAS I PISSED! My plan totally failed. I could barely talk and had pills in my throat. Remember all the violent banging I did? My face was SCARRED up from rug burn and I had rug carpet on my feet as well. It looked like I had been in a car accident. I could barely talk because I had pills stuck in my throat.
Needless to say, I was in the hospital for about five days. I got a diagnosis of bipolar type 2. I had to get the okay from a counselor to move back into my own dorm. They had put a bolt on my door and everything.
Whew…that was a long story.
If anyone were to ask me the worst part of the experience, I would say the hallucinating. It was SCARY. I would take the seizure and scars over that anyday. My room turned into the Amazon jungle.
I would never encourage suicide, but when people tell me they plan on overdosing, I always think to myself, “good luck” because statistically speaking and from personal experience(s), overdosing doesn’t have a huge success rate.
@ArtNHeaven: I can almost guarantee the hallucinations were caused by the benadryl. That stuff contains diphenhydramine as its active ingredient, and that stuff is like legal LSD (from scopalomine, in “witches apples,” or jimson weed, which is equally insanity-inducing), only it’s insanely unpleasant LSD that makes you see scary shit and feel really, really strange. That’s why you should never, ever take more than 6 or so benadryls at one time…. heh. I once saw a person materialize out of a pile of dirty clothes in my room, after taking ten of those things.
That’s weird. I used to have really vivid dreams while on benadryl when I was a kid. Once I threw myself off the top of a bunk bed, convinced the floor was opening up beneath me and that strange creatures were emerging… Fun times.
I was literally scared of my life. To be honest, I didn’t take that much benadryl. It had to be like two or three pills. It was mostly the prozac and wellbutrin that I took.
To this day, I have no idea how long I was unconscious. The doctors had me drink charcoal. Most people who say they had to drank charcoal after an overdose said they threw up, but I never threw up.
One thing I can’t say is people don’t care about me. My phone was ringing off the charts when I was in the hospital. Even when I went to the psych ward calls were steadily coming in. It was definitely a wake up call that I was loved. I just didn’t love myself.
All I know is I have no intentions of overdosing again–at least not intentionally. But I still think about suicide heavily.
I’m just speculating here, but it’s very possible that SSRI’s or dopamine re-uptake inhibitors like Welbutrin may potentiate antihistamines like benadryl — magnify their effects. But like I said, that’s pure speculation and I have no clue… I only say tha because the hallucinating thing you described… yeah, that’s definitely scopolamine/diphenhydramine intoxication, to a T. lol Been there, done that, got freaked out really badly and don’t want to go there again…
But I think it’s cool you got a new perspective out of that experience, for all it’s awfulness and confusion. I’ve had experiences like that before, too, and it’s nice to see other people have been through the same sort of things. For me, it was a hurricane that smacked me upside the head, but there weren’t any hallucinations or hospitalizations involved, just some really nice people and a lot of cooperative survival. Life is weird, eh?
Od doesn’t work. I took four full rx when i was 18. It messed me up for a while and i was passed out for like two days. That’s why I’m trying to get some kcn. Fool proof.
@lorax: lmfao over the first part of your first post!!!
@WiltedRose: As a person who has done several attempts of oding on pills, I can tell you they won’t work. I have thrown up before it could even get through my system to make me pass out. Then afterwards, it is like a bad hangover! I believe because people started using this method to end their life, doctors and manufacturers probably put something in the formula like charcoal or whatnot to prevent people from going this route. And if you do happen to pass out and someone who cares enough to take you to the hospital, believe you me….you will be drinking straight charcoal. That shit is nasty!! all black and wallpaper tasting.
I don’t know you or your circumstances but I can say the point of antidepressants is to stop feeling as depressed as you would feel without the pills. If you are still having suicidal thoughts while taking them, perhaps talk to your doctor about it and maybe you need to increase the dose or even change the prescription. It is funny how it takes a month before you feel the effect of antidepressants but only one-two weeks before you crash!
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Please don;t
your life has value.
OK?
Not a good idea… it’s a safe recipe for a trip to the hospital
Doesn’t work. It’ll just f**k you up for a while and you’ll be placed under psychiatric observance.
Oh god. Because the site has this WP plugin activated that highlights certain words as links, I misread “antidepressant,” as, “antiperspirant.” I was about to go, “NO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON’T EAT THE OLDSPICE!” Because, you know, that shit’s disgusting and the taste will never go away for at least a week. Heh…
But antidepressants are not much better than antiperspirant. Antidepressants will almost definitely cause you to have some kind of breakdown episode that will almost definitely land you in a psyche hospital until you came down from it… and then they’d almost definitely keep you under observation for displaying suicidal intentions. Better to take the antidepressants how they’re supposed to be taken and see if they help, or ask your doc to switch you to something else if they aren’t working. Just my $0.02
I overdosed four years ago on various meds (prozac, klonopin, wellbutrin, benadryl). I was in my dormitory. I started hallucinating very badly. I thought their were ants in my pants. I ran into the hallway and pulled my pants down. My roommate and his friend had to get me out of the hall. I think they just thought I had done some pills and was “tripping”, but they didn’t realize I had overdosed. They told me to just go to sleep and I couldn’t because I “saw” snakes and rats in my room. So I went walking down the hall to go downstairs and report the “invasion” and the next thing I know I started shaking violently and I was having a seizure. My head kept heading the hard carpet. Next thing I know i was out cold.
Then…
I woke up and two girls were above me. One girl was crying and asked what happened. Next thing I know I started balling and telling them I tried to kill myself. Then I saw my fucking RA walking down the hall and the EMT people. BOY WAS I PISSED! My plan totally failed. I could barely talk and had pills in my throat. Remember all the violent banging I did? My face was SCARRED up from rug burn and I had rug carpet on my feet as well. It looked like I had been in a car accident. I could barely talk because I had pills stuck in my throat.
Needless to say, I was in the hospital for about five days. I got a diagnosis of bipolar type 2. I had to get the okay from a counselor to move back into my own dorm. They had put a bolt on my door and everything.
Whew…that was a long story.
If anyone were to ask me the worst part of the experience, I would say the hallucinating. It was SCARY. I would take the seizure and scars over that anyday. My room turned into the Amazon jungle.
I would never encourage suicide, but when people tell me they plan on overdosing, I always think to myself, “good luck” because statistically speaking and from personal experience(s), overdosing doesn’t have a huge success rate.
^^Excuse some of the typos and grammatical errors. I was in a rush
@ArtNHeaven: I can almost guarantee the hallucinations were caused by the benadryl. That stuff contains diphenhydramine as its active ingredient, and that stuff is like legal LSD (from scopalomine, in “witches apples,” or jimson weed, which is equally insanity-inducing), only it’s insanely unpleasant LSD that makes you see scary shit and feel really, really strange. That’s why you should never, ever take more than 6 or so benadryls at one time…. heh. I once saw a person materialize out of a pile of dirty clothes in my room, after taking ten of those things.
That’s weird. I used to have really vivid dreams while on benadryl when I was a kid. Once I threw myself off the top of a bunk bed, convinced the floor was opening up beneath me and that strange creatures were emerging… Fun times.
It’s the scopolamine-haze of witchy-witchcraft 😮 That shit’s a voodoo-drug, I swear.
I was literally scared of my life. To be honest, I didn’t take that much benadryl. It had to be like two or three pills. It was mostly the prozac and wellbutrin that I took.
To this day, I have no idea how long I was unconscious. The doctors had me drink charcoal. Most people who say they had to drank charcoal after an overdose said they threw up, but I never threw up.
One thing I can’t say is people don’t care about me. My phone was ringing off the charts when I was in the hospital. Even when I went to the psych ward calls were steadily coming in. It was definitely a wake up call that I was loved. I just didn’t love myself.
All I know is I have no intentions of overdosing again–at least not intentionally. But I still think about suicide heavily.
I’m just speculating here, but it’s very possible that SSRI’s or dopamine re-uptake inhibitors like Welbutrin may potentiate antihistamines like benadryl — magnify their effects. But like I said, that’s pure speculation and I have no clue… I only say tha because the hallucinating thing you described… yeah, that’s definitely scopolamine/diphenhydramine intoxication, to a T. lol Been there, done that, got freaked out really badly and don’t want to go there again…
But I think it’s cool you got a new perspective out of that experience, for all it’s awfulness and confusion. I’ve had experiences like that before, too, and it’s nice to see other people have been through the same sort of things. For me, it was a hurricane that smacked me upside the head, but there weren’t any hallucinations or hospitalizations involved, just some really nice people and a lot of cooperative survival. Life is weird, eh?
Od doesn’t work. I took four full rx when i was 18. It messed me up for a while and i was passed out for like two days. That’s why I’m trying to get some kcn. Fool proof.
@lorax: lmfao over the first part of your first post!!!
@WiltedRose: As a person who has done several attempts of oding on pills, I can tell you they won’t work. I have thrown up before it could even get through my system to make me pass out. Then afterwards, it is like a bad hangover! I believe because people started using this method to end their life, doctors and manufacturers probably put something in the formula like charcoal or whatnot to prevent people from going this route. And if you do happen to pass out and someone who cares enough to take you to the hospital, believe you me….you will be drinking straight charcoal. That shit is nasty!! all black and wallpaper tasting.
I don’t know you or your circumstances but I can say the point of antidepressants is to stop feeling as depressed as you would feel without the pills. If you are still having suicidal thoughts while taking them, perhaps talk to your doctor about it and maybe you need to increase the dose or even change the prescription. It is funny how it takes a month before you feel the effect of antidepressants but only one-two weeks before you crash!
Be safe and well!