Has anyone considered ending it in a foreign country? This is different from the infamous suicide tourism, which is actually euthanasia & involves paying someone a big sum to legally kill you.
Of all the final destinations on my bucket list, I have been thinking of :
Hanging in a hotel overlooking Eiffel tower
Jumping into Berlin river
Jumping into the river dividing Budapest
Jumping onto NYC subway
Or any of the above methods in Moscow.
There is the Moscow Metro, a number of rivers, and certainly plenty of plush hotel rooms. For a long time I have had this obsession with Russian culture.
I believe that if and when I am determined to die (that urge is growing stronger by the day), I at least deserve to end it all in a pretty place. Not some godforsaken shit hole, certainly not in my country. I did travel quite a bit previously and contrary to what they say about “travel opens up your mind, broadens your horizon etc†nothing’s changed for me.
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where are you from?
Sure, I think about it. Then I think about the problems if it doesn’t work, like the expense of medical care in a country w/o subsidized health care. How much debt will I incur, how much will it cost to ship me *home*? That’s the reason I haven’t done it, i guess.
What is the point.
Dying overlooking a beautiful city or dying in some crummy cheap motel in some nowhere town. Whats the difference, except the fact your family will have more burden transporting your body to your place of origin if you choose to go somewhere abroad. I wouldn’t romanticize my death. Just a simple jump or shot to the head, anywhere, anytime, if the resources allowed me to.
I would rather take any opportunity to romanticize my, at least then I can be of existence to enjoy the worldy pleasure.
Why not just enjoy these place while alive. Go see them all and experience the culture and atmosphere of these places. Change your outlook about traveling, give it a positive perspective and see these places again.
Sorry if I sound a bit harsh in the beginning. My intent is not to offend or criticize your idea in any way.
Do take care.
I hope you reach out for help, either in reality or on here. I can guarantee some one will always be here for you and help you through your pain.
I often thought about travelling to a war zone, blending in with the rebels and seeing how long I last till I get smoked. I mean, I watch the trouble in Syria everyday and seriously… I fuckin laugh at how those rebel “forces” conduct warlike operations. I’ve seen weekend warriors who fight better than them. Perhaps the FSA could use the expertise of a professional soldier, I’ll show them a thing or two. I show them how to wage combat operations, help liberate their country and hopefully die in the process. “Going out with a bang.”
*rubs hands together*
Excellent…
^^ Lol.
Omg some of the things that happen to those rebels is brutal.
They asked for it by waging war like sacks of poo. I’d actually be embarrassed to fight alongside them now that I think about it. Maybe I could just wildcard it; wipe out the Regime loyalists and harass the rebels at the same time, just to see them scarper like headless chooks of course. Us Kiwi soldiers are world renown for our asymmetrical warfighting capabilities.
Could be interesting.
According to the most recent diagnosis, I am bipolar. Though I have had 3 different diagnoses (from schizo to depression) over the years, each by different doctors.
Hence my aversion to doctors. Experience has taught me to not put my hope nor trust in these “medical professionals” anymore. They are instead more interested in selling you the toxic medications.
I mean, did I really expect to walk out of the mental clinic “disease free”? Here is a potential guy whom the evil shrink can potentially rip-off by convincing that he is mindfucked. And needs medication.
I don’t think you should jump into the nyc subway or moscow metro- this will cause a lot of inconvenience to commuters and it will be a gruesome end. i think if you were to go to Paris, you should try to enjoy Paris. I do understand wanting to die in a nice hotel room instead of a disarray of a shithole of a room that belongs to a depressed person. I would do it in a hotel room, have a manicure and pedicure, take a nice bath, make myself ‘feel’ what it is like to be human and a woman one last time, take Nem or hang myself w bedsheets, because I don’t have Nem so I guess it would have to be the other option.
Yeah, go have the best dinner, drink the wine, buy yourself the best sh*t, and pamper yourself- blow all your money and then off yourself. I’ve often thought of doing that myself.